Not so small NSV (for me) -

ksumme

This starts not as a victory, but small set back. Last night I had the evening to myself and watched a movie that I had been wanting to see for a very long time - Precious. It was a great movie, definitely a tear-jerker for most anyone. For me, it hit WAY TOO CLOSE TO HOME. I've worked dealing with my own past for the last 20+ years.

8 years ago, a series of events that took me back to my past sent me into a several month long DEEP depression. Every few years I would have other set backs, that would send me into that depression spiral for weeks at a time. The periods always include incredible binge eating, self pity, and terrible self esteem.

Last night, I definitely started with a small binge eating... after logging everything, it wasn't as bad as I thought it was - about 1,000 calories - and that included what I needed for dinner.

This morning, I woke up refusing to let my emotions rule me, nor 'hate myself' for my weakness with food last night. I am a new, healthy person. I accept I ate what I shouldn't last night, and will be going for a long 5 mile walk this morning. I will be having a 'lower' calorie day, along with higher protein and reduced processed carb weekend. I have a plan, and already feel back on track.

I promise I will conquer my fat!! I will get to a healthy weight, and lead an (overall) healthy lifestyle.

I hope you all have a great day, and do something fun and active this weekend.
-Kathy

rogers8702

thats right get right back on track! good job. i too can relate to the movie and have cried each time i watched it.

ksumme

Thank you!

I did just finish a 5.8 mile walk with my fastest pace yet. Yeah!!

Good luck to you.
-kathy

ImprovingEla

well done, for not letting one evening get the better of all the other good days!
Yay, for the NSV it is not easy to cget the better over our own mind!

CPAUTISM24

Great Job! I think we all have those moments that we get off track...however, the key is to put it behind you and get back on track...right? I am proud of you! Keep on keepin on my friend! Bev:bigsmile:

ksumme

Thank you! I do love the overall support we all give each other on this site. It definitely helps.