The "FINAL" 40

Sarahsmiles0875

I feel my facade cracking. I felt the drive, the push, the power, in the beginning. I felt personal achievement, encouragement, and elation, in the beginning. I have lost 64 pounds so far, but upon looking at my profile, I see my ticker screaming out at me...."40 MORE POUNDS TO GO!" Why are my eyes treating this number like it is larger than life...unattainable? It feels so fricking far away. Now I want it to be the end. Now I want to reach my goal. I want to skip the middle part of this and have victory Now!

I can say that today I feel better than I have in a very long time, however, I do feel like hibernating. I want to hole up in the house and not go to the gym. I want to eat deer carcasses and build up a layer of fat and sleep away the winter months...ahhh to be a bear! But I won't. I will vent now, and then go to the gym because I must. I must do this. I must battle the FINAL 40! Triumphant! I will cross the finish line..I will draw the sword from the stone and claim this body once and for all...I am in charge of you! I am commander of this ship! The flags will fly with the banners of VICTORY! OK, maybe I am getting a little carried away here, alas and alack---tis my nature!

RoseThePenguin

Keep at it!

Don't look at how much you've still got left to do, look at how far you've come