Tired Of Yo-Yo

mselenath
mselenath Posts: 3
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Heya!

My name is Jess and I'm from Sydney. I am 24 and have been dieting off and on since I was 9.

All this on and off dieting has lead to me being big, smaller, big again, smaller, and then biggest. I am really hoping to adjust my mindset and have embarked on a healthy eating routine hoping to use my wisdom and that of others to correct what I have done wrong in the past.

I now realise that my many attempts at VLCD diets (Very Low Calorie) just seemed to be making everything worse in the long run. I would get tired, weak and lose nothing, ending with me giving up and turning to my faith friend Food for comfort.

Almost two years ago now I found myself at my heaviest of 140kg (308 Pounds) and so desperately unhappy that I couldn't leave my house.

What had happened to me? I had been fat all my life . . . I had lost the fat, I had been a young single, skinny (well slightly chubby but it didn't bother me!) gal living in a big city and loving life. I swore I would never go back. But I did obviously, with a vengeance.

Since then I have lost a total of 42 kilos (92 pounds), which is great but nowhere near my goal. But then . . . a dreaded plateau followed by even more dreaded weight-gain! It wasn't much but enough to scare the hell out of me and to re-charge my thirst to be the healthiest and happiest version of me.

So I am going slow, trying to find that balance between healthy and happy. In the past i have just STARVED myself until I got tired of it. This time I know I need to be in this for the long term. it's not about fast weight loss, it's about changing myself into a person who doesn't need to EAT to be happy.

Don't get me wrong, I will always love food. But I have to love myself more than I love food.

Sorry for any rambling. I just am trying to have every tool at my disposal and you guys all seem like a lovely lot.

Also, this time I am losing weight with my friend Alli. She lives in a different state than i do but we look at each others profile and report to each other. It helps keep me honest!

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  • QueenAlla
    QueenAlla Posts: 1
    I am so proud of you Jess! You're making really positive changes, and encouraging me to do the same. I KNOW you can do this, and we will be much fitter and healthier when we meet up in July 2013, compared to when we partied in July 2012. Keep up the good work :) xoxo
  • kristimcb2605
    kristimcb2605 Posts: 37
    Hi Jess,

    You made a great comment - - "it's not about fast weight loss, it's about changing myself into a person who doesn't need to EAT to be happy." Last year, we moved for the 3rd time and I was just sick of it. The year before, I found myself unemployed and lost as to what to do with my life so I began to eat thinking, oh this makes me feel better!!, but it didn't. I totally get where you are coming from. I took a sabbatical from dieting and found that I need myfitness pal, not for the fast weight loss, but for the support and the commitment of tracking my food intake.

    I wish you the best of luck and you can add me as support if you would like.

    Kristi :happy:
  • mselenath
    mselenath Posts: 3
    Alla <3


    Thanks Kristi! Definitely changing behaviours is a big thing for me, I tend to eat when I am bored which is . . .not good, and after years of doing so it has become VERY difficult to tell actual hunger from boredom.
  • kristimcb2605
    kristimcb2605 Posts: 37
    Hi Jess,

    There are some great books on emotional eating and relearning your body's hunger cues. I did this for a month. Just listened and let my stomach actually tell me when I was hungry. I found out that I only need 3 meals a day and not the 6 suggested. 6 meals a day trigger my emotional eating and I am like a roller coaster!! So now, I only eat when my body tells me. Not my emotions!! It has been a long struggle to trust my body, but it knows what it needs - - not my reaction to stress, boredom, or life in general.

    Good luck!!

    Kristi

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