My Most Embarrassing Moment
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When people ask me "What's the most embarrassing moment of your life?", I can't be honest. My answer is always a dismissive "Oh, I don't know...", or a partially fabricated tale of something slightly less mortifying than the true answer.
The true answer is that one day, I had to face a harsh reality.
My family never takes trips together, especially now that my siblings and I are all grown. This past summer my mother, my siblings, my nieces and I took a day trip to an amusement park. I visit this amusement park at least once a year with friends, and I'm a big fan of roller coasters. Visiting the park this time was special, because my nieces are eleven years old now and they're first time roller coaster riders. In all my trips to this particular park, I've never managed to get on one coaster in particular called Possessed. Every time I go, the person I'm with is too afraid to ride it, the ride is closed for maintenance, or the line is too long. As soon as we decided we were going to the park, I told my siblings about this coaster and made them promise to ride with me.
The first half of the day went really well. We were having so much fun with the kids coaster hopping and playing games. We came upon Possessed, the roller coaster I've been talking about for weeks at this point, and my siblings and I got in line. When we were seated, the attendant called for help when trying to fasten me into the chair. I've always been rather large in the chest area (as well as larger than average in other areas. Let's be fair. lol) and amusement parks have never been easy, but they were never quite this difficult, either. When the attendant trying lock the seat for me called for back-up, I was instantly mortified. After a minute of three attendants trying to secure the harness, one of them told me "I'm sorry. We cannot secure you".
I was stunned. Even though I tell myself everyday that I need to do something about my weight, even though every time I'm in line for a ride I have that little fear that maybe this will be the time I can't fit, I still somehow never really believed it would really happen. Once I got up and walked down the exit stairs, what happened began to sink in and I couldn't help but cry. I felt defeated and thoroughly embarrassed.
For the rest of the day, there was an awkwardness. I shut down and wouldn't ride anymore for the rest of the day out of fear I would go through that again, and nobody questioned it. Nobody asked. They all knew why, and that knowing silence was heavy on me for the rest of the trip.
It still weighs on me now.
This past Halloween I turned down an invitation to return to the park. This is the first year I've missed a trip to this place during the Halloween season in 5 years.
This will not repeat.
I won't trade fun for food.
I won't trade self-respect for food.
I won't trade my dignity for food.
I won't be a prisoner in my own body.
I'm going to make changes.
I'm going back to the park.
I'm getting on that ride.
And it's gonna be awesome.
The true answer is that one day, I had to face a harsh reality.
My family never takes trips together, especially now that my siblings and I are all grown. This past summer my mother, my siblings, my nieces and I took a day trip to an amusement park. I visit this amusement park at least once a year with friends, and I'm a big fan of roller coasters. Visiting the park this time was special, because my nieces are eleven years old now and they're first time roller coaster riders. In all my trips to this particular park, I've never managed to get on one coaster in particular called Possessed. Every time I go, the person I'm with is too afraid to ride it, the ride is closed for maintenance, or the line is too long. As soon as we decided we were going to the park, I told my siblings about this coaster and made them promise to ride with me.
The first half of the day went really well. We were having so much fun with the kids coaster hopping and playing games. We came upon Possessed, the roller coaster I've been talking about for weeks at this point, and my siblings and I got in line. When we were seated, the attendant called for help when trying to fasten me into the chair. I've always been rather large in the chest area (as well as larger than average in other areas. Let's be fair. lol) and amusement parks have never been easy, but they were never quite this difficult, either. When the attendant trying lock the seat for me called for back-up, I was instantly mortified. After a minute of three attendants trying to secure the harness, one of them told me "I'm sorry. We cannot secure you".
I was stunned. Even though I tell myself everyday that I need to do something about my weight, even though every time I'm in line for a ride I have that little fear that maybe this will be the time I can't fit, I still somehow never really believed it would really happen. Once I got up and walked down the exit stairs, what happened began to sink in and I couldn't help but cry. I felt defeated and thoroughly embarrassed.
For the rest of the day, there was an awkwardness. I shut down and wouldn't ride anymore for the rest of the day out of fear I would go through that again, and nobody questioned it. Nobody asked. They all knew why, and that knowing silence was heavy on me for the rest of the trip.
It still weighs on me now.
This past Halloween I turned down an invitation to return to the park. This is the first year I've missed a trip to this place during the Halloween season in 5 years.
This will not repeat.
I won't trade fun for food.
I won't trade self-respect for food.
I won't trade my dignity for food.
I won't be a prisoner in my own body.
I'm going to make changes.
I'm going back to the park.
I'm getting on that ride.
And it's gonna be awesome.
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This is brilliant!
I won't trade fun for food.
I won't trade self-respect for food.
I won't trade my dignity for food.
I won't be a prisoner in my own body.0 -
Agreed! Congrats on turning your life around
This is brilliant!
I won't trade fun for food.
I won't trade self-respect for food.
I won't trade my dignity for food.
I won't be a prisoner in my own body.
That's the hardest thing to do 0 -
I know how you feel... And that's why Im working to go back to roller coastering next summer too Don't beat yourself up. We didnt get here in a day, and its not gonna go away in a day, but lots of us are making due and making it through. 0
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Congrats to you! I can so relate. I started at 338 pounds, and there were so many things that I could not do because of my size. It feels really really good when you can do them again. You have a fantastic attitude, you can do this!0
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Wow. I cannot say enough about your courage to share this story. Heartbreaking. I cannot wait to hear of your triumphant return to concur Possessed.
I have not gone to an amusement park either. I went a long time ago (1999 or 2000). A few of the coasters were snug. Plus I am only 5'3" and some of the rides had saddle type seats and I had a hard time getting on. So I stopped going. I am going again in June. By then I should be a lot closer to my goal weight and should have no problems.
So when is your goal for your return to the amusement park?0 -
I'm proud of you. My husband had the same experience. He then chose to lose over 100 lbs. I hadn't quite gotten that far, but it was tight and uncomfortable. I'm at 62 lbs lost with 8 more to go. I haven't gone to an amusement park since I started doing this, but I will next summer ... and like you say ... it will be awesome! Keep up the good work.0
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I feel you on this. I'm glad you have a wonderful outlook on life when it comes to losing weight!!
I didn't have much of that before I started to lose weight in 2009. BUT my husband did tell me I was gaining to much, letting myself go, and it was hard for him to see... So I started to work out, mostly because it gave me a break from my kids and also to get away from him. He hurt me, even tho I dont think he meant it but it hurt. I also got asked if I was pregnant after starting the gym by and trainer
I just got in the habit of it. I lost 40 lbs and looked wonderful and felt amazing. But I'm on meds and the dr changed them, I gained 20 lbs in 2months. I went back to the orginal and started to lose. Another state, new dr, didnt like those meds took me off them. Gained another 20-25 lbs in a matter of 3 months. I lost all hope.
I'm now on a different med, not suppose to make me gain but I still have this attitude that It wont help, I did it all right lost it the right way, no one believed me, and now I'm being punished and I cant get back at it.
Ive gained back almost all that weight and I'm back at square one. Recently a caregiver I employ came in and asked if I was pregnant. I wanted to CRY. So I'm back here trying to work on this all again and it's really hard. But I dont wan't to go thru any of that stuff EVER again.0 -
Thanks for sharing, I totally understand as I had an almost identical experience..but I was with a boyfriend at the time..super embarrassing! That was the day I took my 'before' picture and wrote myself a note to 'remember this day'. It definitely stuck with me and was a motivator for loosing a good amount of weight before I went back. My first trip back was with my best friend who knew what had happened...she was SO supportive and celebratory with me when I had no problems. I can fit now BUT, I too still have that moment of fear while waiting in line. To me, it's a motivator to get in even better shape so I'll never have to question. KEEP up the good work..roller coasters aren't going anywhere and you will enjoy them again!0
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CONGRATULATIONS!!! I feel your pain... September I stepped on a scale after avoiding it for months. I was already over weight and my mouth dropped when I saw I had gained 20 more pounds over the duration of just a few months! I was DEVASTATED.. But instead, have turned that devastation into motivation to lose it!! I'm tired of not being able to wear swim suits.. Next summer, I AM going to be bikini ready! Girl, you sound so much like me! You can SO do this!! You're awesome!!0
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I so feel your pain. My niece asked me to take her on a hot air balloon ride. I had talked about wanting to do this but no one wanted to go with me. I got online to book a trip and discovered that our local company had a weight limit for a 2 person ride and that I weighed too much. I am taking my niece on a ride for her birthday next September! No Excuses.0
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I'm sorry this happened to you... but, I am glad that you are using it as inspiration to turn your life around. You are strong for just posting this, and using it for good.... I can tell that. You can do this. Don't give up, and in no time you'll be able to get on that ride... and move on from this embarrassing moment.0
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I was unconscious for the most embarrassing moment of my life. Thank Gods.
I was being cut out of a truck with the jaws of life and they had to cut me out of my jeans too and I was wearing the world's tiniest bright red thong.
thankfully this was before I got fat.0 -
Thank you so much for sharing that, it made me tear up a bit.
My most embarrassing moment was last February after taking a sales trip with my company (we do every year to various locations for the top sales people) and this year we went to Playa Del Carmen. Awesome right? Not when you spend a week in front of 500 colleagues in a bathing suit. We had a camera crew capturing the entire week to show back to our teams as motivation when we returned. Seeing myself on that video was the kick in the *kitten* I needed to get moving. I vowed I would not return to another club trip in that shape. I'm not where I want to be (the trip is in Feb) but I'm better than I was last year, so baby steps for me.
Best Wishes to you!0 -
Off topic but do you happen to live in PA? I know an amusement park I go to every year with a roller coaster named Possessed.0
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This will not repeat.
I won't trade sexual fun for food.
I won't trade sexual self-respect for food.
I won't trade my sexual dignity for food.
I won't be a sexual prisoner for anybody.
I'm going to make sex changes.
I'm going back to the sex park.
I'm getting on that sex ride.
And it's gonna be awesome. Sex.
Where is this sex park and I want a SEASON PASS!!!0 -
Your story madee cry. I know what it's like to experience this, but you WILL get to where you want to be and you WILL ride that ride.
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you can do it...one step at a time....0
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Aw, you can do it! You will ride that roller coaster soon :-)
Btw, what amusement park is this?0 -
Ouch. GOod for you to make up your mind about that!0
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Thank you for your story and motivation, the same thing happened to me at Seaworld - Orlando Fl. You can do it. Hugs.0
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You're a beautiful writer.
And I have faith in you.
Keep truckin'!0 -
most embarrassing moment, hmmm i have ALOT of those. .. but this one time i was going on a date with this guy and his family. well it was an outside car race or whatever, and i wanted to look tan, so i put on some tanning oil crap , it was my cousins, any hoo, i put soooo much on and it was sooo hot out that day, and i was sitting on a cloth lawn chair that his mom had lent me, and when i got up..there was my butt and legs imprinted in oil on her chair.... i didn't say anything, and hoped no one noticed, but yea, i got dumped the next day before i could even explain! Lmao!0
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love your story..and love your positive attitude...thank you for sharing. you can do this, you have the midset....0
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This is brilliant!
I won't trade fun for food.
I won't trade self-respect for food.
I won't trade my dignity for food.
I won't be a prisoner in my own body.
AGREED!
I feel ya though... I always thought "I'm not big till I hit x amount of weight, then that number changed and changed and now I'm sitting at 267 thinking "if I hit 300... I think that would be pretty crappy, 250 was crappy... wtf happened?!". Not to mention "I'm only fat when I have to wear size x" ... all I did was dig a little deeper when I reached the bottom of my hole to make it a bit more...0 -
I know exactly how you feel because it happened to me years ago. I was too big to ride the rolloer coaster called "Raging Bull" at Six Flags. I was so embarrased and humiliated and cried the rest of the day. I was so depressed the rest of the year that when December came along i vowed to lose weight starting January 1st. By October 1st I lost over 100 pounds and went back to Six Flags for Halloween. I was so nervous to get on the rides but I fit on all of them. Then came Raging Bull. I fit perfectly on it and the next year I bought season passes and went over 20 times back to the park!! It was such an accomplishment and then July came and my Mother in Law died. I gave up on myself and gained every single pound back and that's why I'm on MFP now. To regain control oy myself and ride those dang rides again!! I will do it and so will you!! Let's do this!!0
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When people ask me "What's the most embarrassing moment of your life?", I can't be honest. My answer is always a dismissive "Oh, I don't know...", or a partially fabricated tale of something slightly less mortifying than the true answer.
The true answer is that one day, I had to face a harsh reality.
My family never takes trips together, especially now that my siblings and I are all grown. This past summer my mother, my siblings, my nieces and I took a day trip to an amusement park. I visit this amusement park at least once a year with friends, and I'm a big fan of roller coasters. Visiting the park this time was special, because my nieces are eleven years old now and they're first time roller coaster riders. In all my trips to this particular park, I've never managed to get on one coaster in particular called Possessed. Every time I go, the person I'm with is too afraid to ride it, the ride is closed for maintenance, or the line is too long. As soon as we decided we were going to the park, I told my siblings about this coaster and made them promise to ride with me.
The first half of the day went really well. We were having so much fun with the kids coaster hopping and playing games. We came upon Possessed, the roller coaster I've been talking about for weeks at this point, and my siblings and I got in line. When we were seated, the attendant called for help when trying to fasten me into the chair. I've always been rather large in the chest area (as well as larger than average in other areas. Let's be fair. lol) and amusement parks have never been easy, but they were never quite this difficult, either. When the attendant trying lock the seat for me called for back-up, I was instantly mortified. After a minute of three attendants trying to secure the harness, one of them told me "I'm sorry. We cannot secure you".
I was stunned. Even though I tell myself everyday that I need to do something about my weight, even though every time I'm in line for a ride I have that little fear that maybe this will be the time I can't fit, I still somehow never really believed it would really happen. Once I got up and walked down the exit stairs, what happened began to sink in and I couldn't help but cry. I felt defeated and thoroughly embarrassed.
For the rest of the day, there was an awkwardness. I shut down and wouldn't ride anymore for the rest of the day out of fear I would go through that again, and nobody questioned it. Nobody asked. They all knew why, and that knowing silence was heavy on me for the rest of the trip.
It still weighs on me now.
This past Halloween I turned down an invitation to return to the park. This is the first year I've missed a trip to this place during the Halloween season in 5 years.
This will not repeat.
I won't trade fun for food.
I won't trade self-respect for food.
I won't trade my dignity for food.
I won't be a prisoner in my own body.
I'm going to make changes.
I'm going back to the park.
I'm getting on that ride.
And it's gonna be awesome.
This is almost identical to the experience I had at Six Flags Over Georgia a few years ago. It took me a few years to make the changes, but I'm well on my way now. I'm hoping to be well under 200lbs by next summer. When I reach goal weight, I plan to take a trip to my favorite amusement park, Cedar Point, to celebrate. I haven't been on a roller coaster in close to a decade (maybe longer) because of my weight. I also have been known to say, "I'm tired of being trapped in a prison of fat...a prison of my own making." Kudos to you for taking control. Sometimes we learn the most from our most painful moments. I was recently watching a documentary about a Chinese gymnast. She was only twelve years old at the time the documentary was being made. She had been living at the Chinese national gymnastics training center since she was five or six years old. During that time, she was only able to see her father for a few hours each weekend. She trained for five to six hours a day, every day. This twelve year old girl said that the one thing the keeps her going when she wants to quit, is something her father once told her. "It's hard now, but when you have reached your goal and you look back over the difficult years, you will see that there can be no sweetness in victory without first having experienced the bitterness of tears."0 -
Wow. I cannot say enough about your courage to share this story. Heartbreaking. I cannot wait to hear of your triumphant return to concur Possessed.
I have not gone to an amusement park either. I went a long time ago (1999 or 2000). A few of the coasters were snug. Plus I am only 5'3" and some of the rides had saddle type seats and I had a hard time getting on. So I stopped going. I am going again in June. By then I should be a lot closer to my goal weight and should have no problems.
So when is your goal for your return to the amusement park?
Definitely this summer, but I'm not sure on a date yet. Maybe end of July? That'll be almost exactly one year later.
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I so feel your pain. My niece asked me to take her on a hot air balloon ride. I had talked about wanting to do this but no one wanted to go with me. I got online to book a trip and discovered that our local company had a weight limit for a 2 person ride and that I weighed too much. I am taking my niece on a ride for her birthday next September! No Excuses.
Hot Air Balloon ride sounds like so much fun! My nieces are great motivators for me.. I love them like they're my daughters! Good luck!0 -
Off topic but do you happen to live in PA? I know an amusement park I go to every year with a roller coaster named Possessed.
Actually, I do! This happened at Dorney Park last July.0 -
Aw, you can do it! You will ride that roller coaster soon :-)
Btw, what amusement park is this?
Thanks! It's Dorney Park in Allentown, PA.0
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