Good afternoon people.

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Lets start by introducing myself. I'm Alan, 21 years old and live in Holland.

My journey to where I am at today has been long, with ups and many downs unfortunately.
I'm so close to where I wanna be, but the last couple of months have been going nowhere. I take 2 steps forward and then 2 steps back. I know what I have to do, but now I just need to do it. I hope people here can help be stay motivated and keep me from screwing up.