Trip to Mexico=Mixed Feelings

Rogue_Minx

Well, my mother and father just surprised my family with a trip to Mexico in the late spring/early summer of 2013. It'll be a huge family gathering that includes extended family, as well. Normally, I would be thrilled about this, but my rival cousins will be there; two perfect, little Barbie dolls girls. Athletes in college on scholarships and everything. :grumble:

Anyway, I've got until then to lose twenty more pounds to be at my goal weight (after already losing 35 pounds total) so I don't feel totally inadequate standing next to them in pictures. Problem is, for some reason, I don't feel motivated to hit the gym anymore or even bother watching my diet. I'm not gaining weight, but I'm not currently losing weight either.

I feel like, even if I get down to my goal weight, I won't have the body I want on the white beaches of Mexico. I'm no stranger to lifting and dieting, but the stretch marks might always be there and the insecurity (while less than it used to be) is pretty strong.

What do you guys do for motivation when you know you've got a great trip coming up and you know that there will be people there who will judge you without mercy? How do you get yourselves excited about it, whether than feeling dread in the pit of your stomach when you think about yourself practically naked (bikini) on a hot beach? :embarassed:

Please help!

x_cinder_x

I get excited about knowing I will ditch them the first chance to sneak off with that one crazy Aunt who always seems to manage to create new scenarios for the Hangover movies.