Embarrassed by myself

NewDavenport
NewDavenport Posts: 83 Member
in Introduce Yourself
hi guys, so my name is Cassy and i don't usually introduce myself to anyone i'm used to hiding in the shadows and not interacting with anyone its just i have always been embarrassed by myself and how look mostly but also by my story. When i was a child i was sexually abused which led to me hating myself and also not having trust in anyone, as i got older my mother and father divorced i lived with my mother in QLD (not by my choice but father was in WA i was in school in QLD) when i was 16 my mother kicked me out for a guy she picked up in a gutter (kicked me out after 3 weeks of being with him) so i had to find a way to stand on my own two feet and i did but with everything i learnt i was suffering depression i didn't know it when i was walking in front of cars not caring if i got hit or not but when i attempted suicide my foster parents got me to the doctors where i got diagnosed today i still have ups and downs but i am happier and attempting things i wouldn't normally do starting with introducing myself and changing my life style.

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  • JosieJo2000
    JosieJo2000 Posts: 162 Member
    Hey Cassy, it's lovely to meet you :)

    Wow, you've had a rough time but you sound so amazing, and so strong. I'm so glad your foster parents took you to the doctor, that's such a great step.

    I've suffered depression on and off for years and my Dad is a complete @#$%. I've found eating healthy foods and more importantly exercising keeps the depression at bay. The main thing is to make little changes at first, and be kind to yourself. Know that you are a gorgeous person (you are, your photo proves it) and you deserve better than the life your Mum and Dad gave you. Now you are older you have the opportunity to make the life that you want.
  • StaceySuperfly
    StaceySuperfly Posts: 101 Member
    Hi Cassy, its nice to meet you! Your story breaks my heart but your strength makes me very proud of you. You can accomplish anything you want to and I would be happy to be your friend and offer support. I have been clinically depressed so I get it. Best wishes on your journey :)
  • NewDavenport
    NewDavenport Posts: 83 Member
    Hey Cassy, it's lovely to meet you :)

    Wow, you've had a rough time but you sound so amazing, and so strong. I'm so glad your foster parents took you to the doctor, that's such a great step.

    I've suffered depression on and off for years and my Dad is a complete @#$%. I've found eating healthy foods and more importantly exercising keeps the depression at bay. The main thing is to make little changes at first, and be kind to yourself. Know that you are a gorgeous person (you are, your photo proves it) and you deserve better than the life your Mum and Dad gave you. Now you are older you have the opportunity to make the life that you want.

    Thanks :) and yes i have noticed i am 2 weeks into healthy eating and exercising and i am feeling a little better about myself :) i am aiming at a good weight loss for my 21st as the last time i spoke to my dad he basically called me fat (3 weeks ago) so i want to look really good for my 21st and am aiming to get a photo shoot done at my new weight :) I am just looking for some people that dont judge by looks as friends as the only friends i have are my foster parents :) i dont go out yet im not ready for that yet :) but im sure i will get there
  • DustinNagtalon
    DustinNagtalon Posts: 623
    Feel free to add :)


    @kimo and jojo. - this post was not meant for any disrespect. As it was a follow up from a private message I sent to her.
  • jojojo909090
    jojojo909090 Posts: 205 Member
    Feel free to ignore the tosser above me too!

    It takes bravery to admit that you have been abused. You have MY respect.
  • childermass
    childermass Posts: 115 Member
    Really brave post.
    It takes a lot to bare yourself the way you did. Everybody has had a different upbringing, my weight issues probably come from a similar place.
  • johned63
    johned63 Posts: 306 Member
    Please ignore the moron posting. I am glad you are working on feeling better about yourself. Feel free to add me if you want, I wish you good luck on your journey!
  • lwagnitz
    lwagnitz Posts: 1,321 Member
    Welcome to MFP, Cassy.
    I'm so glad you could share your story with us. I have gone through a lot in my life time as well, some similar to yours as well. I would love to support you on your journey, so please feel free to add me.

    I'm proud of the progress you've made in your life; you've had to be very strong. I hope what you've learned in your rough past can carry on over to the present to drive you to the success you'll see in your future.

    Best of luck,<3
  • lwagnitz
    lwagnitz Posts: 1,321 Member
    why are u posting this? Many of us were molested, physically abused and treated like crap as a child. Way to make a new load of friends! I do not respect u at all!

    I'm sure I'm not alone when I say...right back at ya.
  • CassieReannan
    CassieReannan Posts: 1,479 Member
    Hi Cassy, I am Cassie too just spelt different :)!
    Welcome to MFP, your story sadly happens to many people but hopefully you can regain your confidence and start living! :smile:
  • kdeaux1959
    kdeaux1959 Posts: 2,675 Member
    No need to be embarrased. Sounds like you are strong woman. Depression is an evil master and it is my hope that you are able to destroy its bonds that have demanded your life. You have been through a lot but understand that you are a person of value. You cannot be defined by what has come against you but rather by the strength you demonstrate in overcoming those obstacles. Best wishes to you during your journey.

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