Who else is missing Christmas spirit??

tricia19444

I am so lost and alone this holiday. My family (husband and 2 teens) moved cross country a year and a half ago for better opportunities in life. We have no family here and very few friends (Not for lack of trying... I am super outgoing!)

I have had a multitude of major health problems this year which was hard to deal with financially, since I work fulltime and could not afford time off, plus co-pays, specialists and medications which all add up. This has de-railed our efforts to get a strong new financial start, yet even with this, we have a great quality of life here, just not the financial dreams we hoped to get ahead and stop living paycheck to paycheck. (We don't use any credit...)

Last month I deleted my FB because it was a major time suck and since I wasn't getting the moral support from friends/family that I hoped for, I decided to cut them off from knowing whatever I updated. I feel like those who truly want a relationship with me will build one beyond FB. Even though it contributes to my lonlieness I don't miss it.

We didn't put up a tree because there was nothing to put under it. Theres no gifts to open tomorrow in our home. I feel sad and I feel guilty because I have spent so much of my families budget this year on chasing a cure to make my health problems dissapear. I feel really guilty. I reached out to some friends and family in early November for help to "Secret Santa" my kids and no one stepped up. That in itself makes me feel like no one cares for me or for my family.

I am at work today and in my cubicle trying hard not to break down in tears. I don't have anywhere or anyone to vent to... but I thought maybe there was others out there who are facing a difficult holiday for one reason or another.

newhabit

Actually I was thinking the same thing. I am kind of dreading tomorrow because of having to put up with having family over for 4 days. I like them but I don't enjoy more than a one day visit from anyone. I end up feeling weird like I have to be constantly cooking and entertaining.

My0WNinspiration

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quirkytizzy

I was fired recently from my job, and told I could come back to my old one - and was told after their Christmas party that no. I actually couldn't. I am broke as well, no money for even a single Christmas present. I have my boyfriend's family to contend with - both blessing (someone to spend Christmas with) and bane (I do not particularly like them nor always feel safe around them.) I forced myself to put up my Christmas tree - I usually don't. While it's pretty, it has not particularly made me feel much more Christmas-y.

I'm so sorry that no one was able to help you with the Secret Santa. Times are getting harder and harder. Some years are just awful.

The holidays are often such a pressure-filled, lonely experience. It reminds me of my own family - of which I am entirely estranged from. I cut myself off from them years ago and it is not safe to even call or text them Happy Holidays. It is better this way and most days I am okay with that. Come Christmas, it always hurts a little.

You are not alone - there are others out here who are not feeling the Holidays as anything other than a reminder of loss and forced cheer.

*hugs* Keep sharing. We're listening.

AllTehBeers

I am not feeling it this year either. I didn't bother to decorate because I live alone and my fiancee is very far away. I have to work 18 hours tomorrow and I'm not really getting much in the way of presents.

I'm focused on working on the good things in my life. I have a steady job, I'm healthy to work hard, I have a home, a car that kind of runs and people who care about me in my life. I don't need for anything and for that, I'm truly blessed. Sometimes life gets hard and overwhelming and those are the times we have to take a step back to see the things we DO have.