New girl in town

browneyes6082

Hey you guys! I joined this site and downloaded the app about 2 months ago but I never took the time to fully commit to the lifestyle changes I needed to, or to build a community of support around me. I'm not really sure what to say or where to start but I absolutely HAVE to change my life. I don't like the way the girl in the mirror, on the scale, or in the clothes looks, but I **really** hate how she feels. I've lost 4 pounds in the 2 months since I decided to lose weight (read: I lost 4 pounds and then gave up and by some miracle haven't gained any of those 4 back). I'm so done with this person. I feel like I'm trapped inside a body that's not my own. I will do everything I can to shake off this extra weight. I have a drive and desire now that I've never had before.
I don't have any "crazy" goals, I don't want to loose 1,000lbs in 2 weeks. I don't want to wear a bikini this summer... Well, I mean, I do want that actually... haha. But I'm okay working and waiting for that day. Now for the ugly details... I weigh 176lbs and am 5'4" and 22 year old. ugh. Those numbers just look so ugly next to each other. My first goal is to lose about 30 pounds and be 145lbs, my ultimate goal is 50 pounds and to be back down to the weight I looked and felt my best, 125. That's my freshman year of college weight, ugh. What 4 years and the stress of life will do to you. I have no idea how long it will take me to get to my goal weight. I'm hoping for around a year but I have no idea if that's reasonable. But I absolutely HAVE to reach my first goal of 30lbs by summer. I cannot deal with another summer as a fatty. A chunky girl, yes. But nothing sucks more than a humid summer and being obese.
I'm REALLY looking forward to getting to know you guys, build friendships, and reach our goals together.