I lost a stone but en route to losing more ;)

sarahlm20

Once upon a time I was once a size 10-12 weighing around 9-10 stone between 2007-2009, fast forward 3 years and you would see a size 16-18 weighing 14 stone looking back at you!

Although I had a tough upbringing I barely put on weight throughout the school years but one thing haunted me from the last year of school onwards... Bullies! You see bullies may not be around you for the rest of your life but their words and hatred ring in your ears subconsciously a few years onwards. Apparently I was "Fat"... a size 10-12? Are you joking? Seriously? but as well as that I was bullied for wearing glasses, for having a high voice, for not having cool things, getting along with boys more then girls, for being an 'outcast', for being a good hard-working girl, for having braces... literally any fault they could find they picked it out and began a new phrase to shout out every time I walk past. They didn't take time to open their eyes to realise this so-called quiet good girl who got down and actually do her classwork was actually quite a loud giggly hyper funball of a person, but no they didn't both to notice. Ironically I was getting called ' Fat' by a girl who is double my size and still is, in school she must of been in a size 20 and yet subconsciously i believed her. I had no self-worth or self respect for myself which in the years next brought a turbulent mess.

After leaving school I stayed in touch for roughly 2 years with friends, we used to meet up and walk for hours chatting, anything bad we ate or drank it was burn't off, until a few years later I was told to move out of my mums house. This was just the beginning of disaster! My friends started leaving me one by one, I was lonely and jobless, bored, fed-up and haunted by the past. To pass time and to comfort I began to snack a bit, a little bit here, a little bit there then all of the sudden i hit the scales and was in for a shock! I fetish for Domino's pizza's was the main blame but then there was the alcohol which i drank to subside any pain felt from broken relationships and depression. Not to mention the several overdoses I took as a teen and self-harming I used to cope back then, all replaced with one thing, Food.

Then amazingly one day I met my boyfriend. We had spoken for about 3 years online as MSN friends and finally gave it a blast to meet up. I don't know how much I weighed but must of been a little under 13stone I reckon but I was still the same size clothing. He brought me the biggest happiness I could find, it was overpowering. But you know what happens when you first date? Meals out, cosy nights in, boozy nights out and laziness finally settles in. And the only healthy thing that seemed available at his house was some sliced carrots on the sunday! As well as getting comfortable in the relationship I also stayed jobless and then had homelessness to deal with (lucky he put a roof over my head), with all that stress, no wonder food put a smile on a sad girls face.That's how I became even more heavier. I turned 14 stone within a blink of an eye!

So last year I kicked started a plan, which was of course, to lose weight! Now, I have tried various things such as diet pills, slim fast, apple cider vinegar, but I am useless at remembering things and always ended up either forgetting or overdoing it. So I thought, lets bin the pills and the ridiculous slimming powder. Next I decided I won't put too much pressure on myself to lose a specific amount of weight but I will just see what happens. Now I am the kinda person who actually loves veg and salad so swapping the food was simple in my mind as I enjoy healthy things just as much as the junk, but the problem was fitting it in as I began to work as a carer and also how am I going to eat healthy when at my boyfriends it's always fried food? In the end I had a natter with my boyfriend suggesting he should tell his dad we could get our own food, which eventually he did and the fridge was full with salad!. I never ate breakfast but for lunch I would have salad or a salad wrap, for tea was soup or a homemade stir-fry. It made me begin a better and happier relationship with food. As soon as summer hit I managed to pester my boyfriend to go out for a few walks in the park now and then (he is the indoor kinda guy, and skinnier too so he can get away with it). Then something weird but wonderful happened, my boyfriend took an interest to his weight and realised he had a put a bit on after all our meals out for that first year of the relationship. He was gutted. I was sad for him, yet happy... I gained an exercise buddy!

Previously before I met him he lost weight as he put on quite a bit and he did it by using the Wii. So we dusted that off and played a bit of it, yet I couldn't stick to it. So we stuck to going to the park, sometimes kicking a football about other times making me do sit ups! Embarrassing but yet worth it! We dragged the exercise bike into the front room went on it every night when I was there for half hour pushing ourselves to higher limits, sit-ups and stomach crunches before bed and some lifting weights (well tin cans). Cycling to my boyfriend house which is 9.9miles on occasion. And it worked. I even did a 5 mile Race For Life and a 10 mile charity midnight walk. I lost a stone! Now I am 13 stone.

It has been a journey but certainly not the end! I want to one day be around 9-10 stone, back to my old size in clothing and no 'plus size' or 'large' labels!! I want to get fit and skinny for my health and to get my confidence back. The other day my boyfriend jokingly said "who's that, she's hot?" at a nice picture of size 12 me .. I replied " it's me..... Do you still think I am hot?". He kinda shrugged a little and replied " hmm, well not really your more cute!".... To say the least i wanted to cry my eyes out and smash things up. Okay cute is better then ugly but cute is still not as good as hot or pretty. I want him to fall back head over heels for me. Are relationship is great, perfect but it could be better and it will because there will no longer be "cute Sarah", it will be "Flamin' Hot Sarah" soon and I will make sure of it!

My goal now is the reach 12 stone in the next 6 months, exact date to do it by : 30th June 2013. I will be doing all the same as before but more exercising and hopefully will join a zumba class and go swimming.

Well that's it from me! Sorry to talk to much! I will try to put photo's on this post to show you the old me and current me!

Old me (in school in stripey top) : 9 or 10 stone



Old me: 2008-2009- still same weight




Fat me: 14 stone in earlier 2010



The New Me: Lost 1 stone: 13stone









My two goal photos of what i want to be like (photo's of me before i put on weight):