Running Away

TheTimeIsNow

So let me first say, It's good to be back. For those who dont know anything about me, I was here for a about a week last time and lost my resolve rather quickly. Here's a rundown of what Ive learned here lately.
1. I have a crumbling self-image and self-worth. Ive always struggled with those two issues growing up.
2. i weigh about 20 lbs more than i did last time, which doesnt help to see your distance from your goal go up, instead of down.
2.Kinda offstopic, Ive struggled alot lately with who I am and why im here. Still working on those two.

Anywyas, for the last two days Ive dealt with a physical problem, that quite frankly, scares the hell out of me. Ive had this pain in my chest. Its not really a bad pain, just kinda dull. Only really hurts when i move my right arm a certain way. Im sure its not a heart attack , or why would it last so long? I think it may be the way im sleeping. But still, chest pain aint nothing to deal with. I think thats kinda galvanized my resolve here. Ive decided too, that this quest needs a song. Something that when I hear it it pushes me over the top. I was thinking Bon Jovi's "Blaze Of Glory". What do you all think? Any suggestions? Am I the only one who has a song like that? Anyways, when I 1rst signed up, I was planning on getting a membership to a gym, but my car's started having problems and its been downhill since, sucking up ALL of my remaining funds. I think for now its just me, my ipod, my 300+ pds, and an open road. Anyways, Im back and will be checking in alot. So leave me some love

TheTimeIsNow

So let me first say, It's good to be back. For those who dont know anything about me, I was here for a about a week last time and lost my resolve rather quickly. Here's a rundown of what Ive learned here lately.
1. I have a crumbling self-image and self-worth. Ive always struggled with those two issues growing up.
2. i weigh about 20 lbs more than i did last time, which doesnt help to see your distance from your goal go up, instead of down.
2.Kinda offstopic, Ive struggled alot lately with who I am and why im here. Still working on those two.

Anywyas, for the last two days Ive dealt with a physical problem, that quite frankly, scares the hell out of me. Ive had this pain in my chest. Its not really a bad pain, just kinda dull. Only really hurts when i move my right arm a certain way. Im sure its not a heart attack , or why would it last so long? I think it may be the way im sleeping. But still, chest pain aint nothing to deal with. I think thats kinda galvanized my resolve here. Ive decided too, that this quest needs a song. Something that when I hear it it pushes me over the top. I was thinking Bon Jovi's "Blaze Of Glory". What do you all think? Any suggestions? Am I the only one who has a song like that? Anyways, when I 1rst signed up, I was planning on getting a membership to a gym, but my car's started having problems and its been downhill since, sucking up ALL of my remaining funds. I think for now its just me, my ipod, my 300+ pds, and an open road. Anyways, Im back and will be checking in alot. So leave me some love

yoginimary

Welcome back.
You could always switch your car for a bike

I don't even pretend to know anything about pains. At your age, I would think it's a muscle thing though.

I've never known who I am or why I'm here - but I'm ok with that. There are bigger things to worry about.

Best of luck to you in your journey.

SoupNazi

First of all, great job for getting back on the horse (you can't go down in a blaze of glory without a horse.) Second, that chest pain might be what I have right now. It hurts to breathe! Check out "Pleurisy" on Web Md, and see what you think. If it doesn't subside in a few days, you better go see a doc, IMO.
Third, and foremost, don't let adversities get you down! You don't need a fancy gym to get in shape, believe me. Sometimes the open road is alot more relaxing! Good luck to you.

ali106

hey there!

You know what...just you posting is a good sign that you're on your way to feeling better! I'm a true believer in fresh starts...sometimes we need a few before we get it really right....

what I don't want you to do is feel you're alone....because you're not...so many people feel like you do...God, if you had I don't know a week or two I'd give you an earful on what life is like for me at times ugh...but I really feel like staying connected to others will help you out....just bite off as much as you can chew (a little pun intended there too lol)....or one day at a time...whatever you like to call it just don't break yourself by trying to conquer it all at once...you'll reach your goals in life with just doing the best you can, little by little....ya know?

oh and as for the pains your feeling, if they persist please just get them checked out it's probably nothing but I'm a mom...its my job to worry LOL....humor me!

okay enough of my preaching hon....time for welcome back hugs and high fives~!

I hope to see you here more and more, talking small, steady steps....as for the knowing why you're here and who are you....that's what we all find out everyday....lifes a journey kiddo...enjoy it!

hugs!
Ali