Weight loss goals revised: Advice and reality check needed.

skinnysmartbitch

Good news. I am back to the skinniest I have ever been in my adult life 5'3 and 138 pounds. I am solid muscle and comfortable wear a size 3 or size 5 in all my jeans and clothes. Sounds great right? I feel great. And if I were single, this would be a non-issue. I have always thought if I were able to get down to 130, I would look soooooooooo sexy. I have some love handles and a little bit of fat on my stomach that you don't see when I have clothes on. It's hardly even noticeable

... I am dating the love of my life. He is 6'3 and 185. He's completely in love with me. All of his exes are super gorgeous and thin and TINY. I just feel so self-conscious naked. I feel great with clothes on, but I don't feel comfortable naked. I am so intimidated by my boyfriend's good looks.

Part of me feels like I should continue slimming down. After all, this is something I have always wanted right? And I am so uncomfortable naked. I look good naked, I just wish I looked better. I don't even believe my boyfriend when he tells me I'm beautiful, sexy, etc. Being naked is so disarming and vulnerable -- I'm just trying to be comfortable in my own skin. But having my first real boyfriend is exposing all these insecurities I didn't even know I had?

The other part of me just wants to relax and accept myself exactly the way I am and learn to see myself beautiful in this moment.Part of me wants to push hard to continue slimming down... I feel like 3-8 more pounds would just give me so much more definition all over... perhaps even feel confident naked instead of so vulnerable and shy!

Anyone else gone through something similar? Thoughts? Advice? Should I learn to be happy the way I am or should I push for more? How do you know for sure you're doing it for the right reasons?