Ughhh I need some help.

sarahelizabeth

I've never posted a blog but here it goes.

So I went to the doctor for my little brothers physical, and while he was getting his check up I weighed myself and measured my height. I'm 5'5'' and I guess I weigh 4 pounds more than I thought I did. So 198.

I can't believe I weigh that much. I feel so disgusting. I always compare myself with other people. Even if they are bigger than me for some reason they always look better than I do. People tell me I don't look like I weigh that much, and I never thought I did. I mean I thought I was bigger than I should be but not that much.

And its been almost four months of exercising pretty much five days a week, usually around 25-40 minutes, I do some strength training as well, and I eat pretty well also. I don't really eat sweet stuff cause I just don't buy it and sometimes I bake but I just eat a little at a time. I write down what I eat and the calories and usually stay between 1300 to 1500 calories. I will of course have my days, when I don't eat that good, but its usually once every month, if even. I do have to eat what my parents buy, because I still live with them, and they make me eat dinner with them, and sometimes they buy kind of easy to make, not that healthy food, but I can't do anything about that because I don't have a job and can't buy anything to replace it.
Oh I don't exercise with any of my friends because they are all tiny and they don't exercise. And I feel embarrassed when I am around them and they don't encourage me at all, they just tell me I don't need to lose weight, when I cleary do.
I'm going to go on walks when the ice melts, because right now all of the side walks are lined with ice and I slip all the time.

And its so discouraging that after four months I've lost nothing. NOTHING at all and I just feel so depressed all the time. And I don't even think about it but I will tell myself that I have a pretty face, but my body is just getting me absolutely no where. I actually discourage myself and call myself bad names, not even on purpose. And again I always compare myself to others, thinking if I could just be like that then I would have so much more confidence, but for some reason I can't get there.

Does anyone else have this problem or had this problem? And if so how did you overcome it? I could use some encouragement because at this point its pretty much just like what IS the point if nothing goes anywhere.

Thanks.

MistyFinley

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sheri3762

Sara Elizabeth, my heart really goes out to you because your post really does show your depression regarding your weight, and I hate to say it, but i thought a recognized a bit of low self esteem. Ok, so you've been on here for 4 months or did you just start on here? You said you are eating 1300-1500 cal a day, but are you really sure about that amount and do you know how much protien, carbs, fats, etc. you are getting in daily? If you've been on here then you know these things so we could try to help you figure out other methods to help you change it, but if you haven't been on here there are a lot things to look at, expecially what you are eating, when you are eating and how much you are eating concerning portions. Could you post again a be a bit more specific so someone on here can can give you some good advice?
In the meantime, are you drinking a lot of water? when you excercise are you getting your heart rate up to where it needs to be? Have you been doing the same excercise everyday? Try to fill in the blansks for me. A lot of people on here really know what they are taoking about and can give you great advice. I've lost 34 pounds so far and I was 209 at my highest. I've done it in 4 months. 22 of those pounds just since I started on here, so If you aren't logging on here daily, maybe now is the time to start. It truly has changed my attitude, given me lots of motivation and willpower you need to get a good start. Let us know, and keep your head up! theres always some good advice that will help you figure it all out!!!

sarahelizabeth

I've been on here for four months. And I used to log on everyday, but then school just got too hectic and I stopped getting on, but I still do write down everything I eat and how much of everything is in it everyday.

I try to drink as much water as I can but usually I feel just way to sick when I drink more than 8 cups.

My heart rate gets up to 170 sometimes. The lowest is usually about 140.

And usually my exercise is, 25 minutes one week, then build up five minutes the next until I get to 50 minutes. (This is all on my stationary bike) Thats when I usually get bored and go back to 25, and then continue. Or I start to do stairs one week and then back to my bike. I used to walk everyday, but only in the summer, because the sidewalks get to slippery, and it gets pretty cold up here in the winter. (sometimes 30 below!)
I do crunches, and I lift some weights. I do a lot of abs workouts, and squats. Sometimes I do yoga but I'm really terrible at it.

elliottaw

It just sounds like you are eating way to many calories or maybe your portions are too big, I have been on here for about a month and a half and have lost 15 pounds and while I usually feel like I could eat all the food in the house I really try hard to stick to the portion sizes on the labels and if I am going to have something that is high in calories I may just eat a half portion of it instead of a full portion. Trying to eat 1200 calories a day and make sure that you write down everything because cheating will not help your body counts everything that you put in it weather you write it down or not, would be nice if it didn't them.

kwardklinck

Try measuring your servings. Sometimes that's a big eye opener. If you write down everything you eat, go ahead and post it in your food journal in here so you can look at the proteins, carbs, fats etc. If you see you're eating too much of one thing, you can adjust it. Sounds like you need a different exercise because yours doesn't seem all that fun to you. Try some work out dvds or dancing. I don't get bored with mine because I have about 5 different ones and they're fun to me.