lacking motivation.... & fighting an eating disorder.

maaandyxoxo

my problem is, i work a full time job... at a daycare... all day long i chase one years old around and try to prevent them from killing each other. so i get off work and im like "all right cool im gonna go work out!" 30 long minutes later home, i get in and sit down and im just tired and dont wanna get up ... lately ive been doing a little bit better but not as good as i want to be. i lack motivation.

also, on the weekends im usually home alone because my boyfriend works all weekend, so i go to the gym and work out and work out and work out and come home and work out and work out and half the time ill end up in the floor at the gym feeling dizzy, because i havent eaten that much and i have to tell myself go eat go eat, but then im like no work out work out work out... but when i do go eat and if its something like oatmeal, i basically have to force myself to eat it... half the time im never hungry, and im forcing myself to eat because i know i have to eat ... but i also heard its bad to force yourself to eat so idk im just rambling.

tootoop224

Sounds like youe ED is getting in the way of putting a plan in place for yourself. If you're not already, I would suggest seeing someone about your ED and care for that. I am sure a medical professional will know how best for you to proceed.