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CherylM1977

Hello,

I am new to the community of MFP. I have used it on my phone before but never able to follow through....this time I NEED to follow through. I have recently been put on High blood pressure meds and realized I was turning into something I didn't want to be. I always told myself you will not be this way but it has happened I have two very active and lovable boys who are zestful for life and all it can show them. I can no longer keep up with them without having to stop to catch my breath...hauling laundry up and down the stairs makes me so winded that I have to sit to catch my breath. I have to stop a catch my breath now to do so many things that it scares me. There are two things that made me realize that it IS time to change 1) the high blood pressure and 2) my youngest son is putting on a belly.....I CANNOT let him get like me....I will have failed as a mother if he gets pudgy like me.

I have never been an "active" person...I walked leisurely to calm my nerves but nothing more than that. When pregnant with my youngest son I gained about 45lbs and when I was given the ok to move around again I did. I didn't truly exercise I occasionally exercised to a walking video and chased the boys around and all my daycare kids. I didn't watch what I was eating so much because when I was exhausted at the end of the day I made (or ate in) what was fast and convenient. However, I lost those 45lbs and another 25 to boot!! I was ecstatic and had gotten below my goal weight. Several stressful events happened over a few years and it was discovered (by a new dr) that I had been suffering from postpartum depression for nearly 4 years without treatment. I was put on antidepressants and gained 20lbs....through counseling and medication I was able to beat the depression monster and now am in a new place with my emotional health In the meantime I was also put on another medication that encouraged a weight gain of 40lbs in 6 months Therefore between two meds I had gained all the weight I worked so hard to take off. I am still on these meds so to lose weight is a difficult adventure to begin with...I was feeling hopeless because I would loose 10 to 15lbs (by starving myself) and gain it right back. I had to switch my general dr. and ended up with someone who only focused on the fact that I was overweight and not dealing with why I was truly there. She was mean about it and even told me to seek out over eaters anonymous even though that was not why I weight what I do now. After leaving her office crying one day I switched to another dr and she understood that I was heavy but not all by my own actions. She has encourage me to loose weight and take it very very slow because of how out of shape and heavy I am right now. She also suggested this site and this time I intend to stick to it and hit my goal weight.

Currently I need to lose 59lbs just to be considered in the overweight category for my height. So this is my current goal to go from morbidly obese to obese to overweight. I hope that I can find some support among fellow MFP users as I'm gonna need all the support I can get.