Torn between two lovers...um...holidays!

SoulfulLori
SoulfulLori Posts: 66
edited September 18 in Motivation and Support
I'm purely venting and fessing up!

Been doing MFP for 2.5 weeks now and lost 4 lbs! Yay! That's the good news.

The bad news is that the past few days I've noticed I'm pretty tired and that always leads me down the road of "eating crap" and "not caring".

So yesterday was Purim (I'm Jewish). Went to synagogue in the evening with my calories eaten for the day and feeling good about myself and not hungry. I knew there was food and drink earlier in the evening but I purposely avoided that and showed up later. (Yes, this is a holiday where they actually let you "party" in the synagogue like crazy people!) Thought that was a good plan.

Well, I get there and everyone is merry and STILL eating stuff. A special food of the holiday is "hamentashen" which is a triangular cookie with fruit in the middle. I WANTED ONE SO DAMN BAD I WANTED TO CRY. Well, towards the end of the service someone gave me one (my face must have showed my desire) and I ate teh sucker. It wasn't even that good darn it! Then I had a piece of candy!

I only went over my calories by 280 so I won't gain weight but I have a big Easter gathering to go to on Sunday and oh yeah a party on Saturday! So much will power needed in so little time!

I'm tired and cranky and feeling like IS THIS ALL FREAKING WORTH IT? :explode: I know it is but sometimes...

Maybe I need a nap like a 3 year old child?!:ohwell: :sad:
Thanks for listening.:laugh: :wink:

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  • I'm purely venting and fessing up!

    Been doing MFP for 2.5 weeks now and lost 4 lbs! Yay! That's the good news.

    The bad news is that the past few days I've noticed I'm pretty tired and that always leads me down the road of "eating crap" and "not caring".

    So yesterday was Purim (I'm Jewish). Went to synagogue in the evening with my calories eaten for the day and feeling good about myself and not hungry. I knew there was food and drink earlier in the evening but I purposely avoided that and showed up later. (Yes, this is a holiday where they actually let you "party" in the synagogue like crazy people!) Thought that was a good plan.

    Well, I get there and everyone is merry and STILL eating stuff. A special food of the holiday is "hamentashen" which is a triangular cookie with fruit in the middle. I WANTED ONE SO DAMN BAD I WANTED TO CRY. Well, towards the end of the service someone gave me one (my face must have showed my desire) and I ate teh sucker. It wasn't even that good darn it! Then I had a piece of candy!

    I only went over my calories by 280 so I won't gain weight but I have a big Easter gathering to go to on Sunday and oh yeah a party on Saturday! So much will power needed in so little time!

    I'm tired and cranky and feeling like IS THIS ALL FREAKING WORTH IT? :explode: I know it is but sometimes...

    Maybe I need a nap like a 3 year old child?!:ohwell: :sad:
    Thanks for listening.:laugh: :wink:
  • wriglucy
    wriglucy Posts: 1,064 Member
    I know how you feel. Sometimes it feels like the world and holiday are against us. At least you are aware of it, and can try to make better choices of the food around you. Also, just get back on track after the weekend, when things are a little more settle. Weight loss come based on what you do on a regular basis, not just a few days.

    Good luck! I'm sure you'll be fine!
  • kerrilucko
    kerrilucko Posts: 3,852 Member
    I feel your pain! We ALWAYS have cheesecake at easter!! lol, and get this, we live far away from my fiance's family. Yesterday we get this big heavy package in the mail from them! I'm all excited, I love getting mail, so he lets me rip the sucker open only to find that they've sent us not one, not 2 but 3 POUNDS of FUDGE! we're talking chocolate walnut, peanut butter and oreo flavours! all my damn favourites! In Laws are the devil, lol. I havn't touched it yet but I told my man to take it with him to work so I don't have to look at it all day .
  • Damn...now I want fudge. LOL!


    Good idea to take it to work!

    Thanks Kristin...you are right. :) It is what we do on a regular basis. :smile:

    Though...am I trying to be something I'm not? Maybe I am the chunky Jewish girl? LOL...I kknow that is wrong.
  • lotusfromthemud
    lotusfromthemud Posts: 5,335 Member
    Hamentaschen only come once a year.

    Take it in stride, it all evens out. :flowerforyou:
  • auntkaren
    auntkaren Posts: 1,490 Member
    If your tired a lot perhaps start taking a multivitamin a day. I have to have my caffeine usually green tea w/sugar, or a couple of diet Pepsi's a day. I'm not a coffee drinker. Maybe more protein in your diet. Your doing great :drinker:
  • Just so you know..you are not alone. My first two weeks were great..and now Im in the "craving" mode. I am hoping it will pass quickly...but I too have been feeling exhausted...maybe its our bodys doing a wake up call?

    Anyway! Remember its a life style change..you get right back up today and start again. Because your holiday will come again next year and you will know to "save" a few calories for the evening events.

    Hang in there..and if you ever need anything let me know!

    ~ B ~
  • Yeah...once a year...true!

    Oh...auntkaren...my tired issue is iron actually. Beyond the other things I'm battling, it was just discovered my iron stores are extremely low so I am now on an iron supplement. I was starting to feel better but as a result I started exercising more (using up more iron) and then I got tired again. I must work on balance and give my body a chance to catch up. I was just so determined to get off some of this unwanted flesh! LOL!

    So I guess I answered my own question there...I've not achieved balance...which was my main goal all along and as a result I've made myself tired and my attitude went in the toilet with it. That is the lesson here. Perhaps I should revamp my workout schedule for next week and work on my "moderation" issues!

    Thanks everybody!
  • :heart: Thanks sportsmomof2...u r a real peach!
  • Life_is_Good
    Life_is_Good Posts: 361 Member
    Holidays... a dieter's nightmare. My husband & I have even thought about not going to the family gathering this weekend, just to stay away from the temptation.

    Keep that water bottle in one hand & a carrot in the other... :happy:

    Enjoy your family & have a great holiday!
  • Oh sure...ya had to say peach...lol....

    Right back attcha....

    :smile:
  • dulceluva
    dulceluva Posts: 728 Member
    I think its only worth it if you really enjoyed it and you knew you deserved it.

    I love those cookies. I live in a Jewish area and the one lady actually puts chocolate Kisses in the middles of hers and they taste awesome!
  • Chocolate kisses? OY VEY! NOW I NEED ONE OF THOSE! :laugh: :laugh: :laugh:
  • AJCM
    AJCM Posts: 2,169 Member
    Lori! All is well! Don't worry! Enjoy your holiday treats, guilt free, and then back to being strict on Monday!

    Even if you get through the holidays breaking even (eating your daily burned calories - probably around 2000 a day? - you'll have nothing lost, nothing gained, right? CLEAN SLATE!
    :flowerforyou:
  • I have the same problem... my bf's family is all skinney and they all love lots of food and especially if its really sweet and fattening... holidays with his family are very hard because I love all of that food... not just the sweet rolls and the red velvet cake and the decadent brownies but also the candied yams and dinner rolls with butter and the green bean casserole... oh so many good things to eat... and to top it off they get offended if I don't eat big like they do... I love them all but I always leave feeling like crap because not only did I not get to eat all of that great food but I also upset my host by not eating it... and to make it worse if I had eaten it I would have felt awful about that too... holidays are a really hard time for dieters... verymuch a no win situation sometimes...

    Jenn
  • LightenUp_Caro
    LightenUp_Caro Posts: 572 Member
    Holidays are a killer.

    Actually just coming home from school in general is a killer for me.
    When I get out of my daily routine at school and away from my personal pantry, its hard on me.
    My family usually sits down and eats that way a lot, and its hard to do that when I'm used to my own thing.
    BUT we all get through it and it turns out okay.

    Holidays are a celebration, enjoy!
  • ali106
    ali106 Posts: 3,754 Member
    lmbo you guys are crackin me up!!!

    I love the holidays but hate the feeling afterwards...like...O-M-G! what have I done!!!!:embarassed:

    you know what....I'm not gonna stress out....I have been doing sooo good w/ counting calories, exercising that one day of pure bliss....the pure bloat....is not gonna kill me....I will continue to exercise up and maybe even ON Sunday (morning) and I am NOT going to record my food that day, I've made up my mind....but somehow I think I'll be not so bad, because of the training....and sometimes when you give yourself a little leway beforehand you're more conscious, like oh I can do this....its not off limits...ah okay, then its no big wup! (at least that's what I'm hoping for LOL)

    our menu is gonna be good though, stuffed mushrooms, anitpasti w/ fresh italian rolls, stuffed shells, baked honey ham, double stuffed garlic/cheese potatos, steamed veggies, & roasted sweet potatos and mushrooms. Dessert: cheese cake, brownies, ice cream, fruit tart, sigh....this is not gonna be pretty! lol

    oh well folks! whatever happens enjoy your holidays and if you go over not the end of the world....just the beginning of another fresh start right!? lmbo

    hugs!
    Ali
  • watch48win
    watch48win Posts: 1,668 Member
    I have already resolved that I will be going over my calorie limit this Sunday, and I will not stress about this. 1 day is not going to throw me off what I have already accomplished! Easter comes but once a year!! live it up!
  • fitladyfawkes
    fitladyfawkes Posts: 138 Member
    You are hilarious! At least now i know i am not alone in this world! I wish i could give you awesome words of advice but hopefully you will feel better knowing that i suffer just as much as you!! But i know it is something that i can control, it just comes from "eating to live" not "living to eat"!! Dont ever ever give up, even when you feel that "not caring" feeling. We can all do it!!!!
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