Frustrated.

ToTheLove

I'm sorry guys, I need to vent. Really bad. There are so many things going on right now that I'm seriously about to break.

This week is going to suck as far as weight loss goes. I can already tell. My boyfriend and I got into it pretty bad last night and the very last thing I wanted to do was go tothe gym. So. I didn't. I also ate. Alot. I made cookies and pizza. And gobbled. And then I felt worse. Can't go tonight, can't go tomorrow, oh, and it's closed on Sunday. So that's 4 day no exercise. Great. Just .. awesome. :explode:

We're currently renting from his dad who lives 3 hours north of us and is an extreme clean freak. So he's coming into town this weekend and my boyfriend is all freaking out because the house isn't perfect. SO WHAT! I'm so sick of it! Not only because he freaks out about it but because he doesn't bother to get down to it and clean the house HIMSELF! :grumble: It's always my fault. Always. I'm so tired of it that I just blew up at him last night. I said some things I didn't mean and I feel bad about that, but for the most part.. I meant it. I'm not his Momma. I'm NOT going to clean up after him all the time. :mad:

I'm starting to actually resent myself for all these restrictions. I love working out, but I'm getting mad at myself because I can't eat what I want to eat. I'm starting to think... "why am I even bothering?" It's like I've lost focus of why I'm even doing this.

Not to mention i HATE MY JOB. We got a new manager about a month ago and she's just... horrible. I mean.. SHE isnt horrible.. but she's watching us so closely and she's turning us from Customer Service to Sales and I HATE sales... I get so frusterated because I'm constantly being watched and she nit picks everything we do on every call and I can't stand it. I'm going to be starting school in July for Accounting but graduating just can not come soon enough. And it's not like I can afford to quit.. I'd probably take a pay cut.

I know everyone has stuff like this going on in their lives its just that right now everything feels like it's crushing me. I'm so ready to give up on everything. Cleaning the house, going to the gym, eating right, school, work. I just... I don't want to DO anything.

Anyway, thanks for listening to my vent. I'm probably just in a bad mood cuz I haven't been sleeping very well lately either and I'm exhausted.

Thanks guys :flowerforyou:

ToTheLove

I'm sorry guys, I need to vent. Really bad. There are so many things going on right now that I'm seriously about to break.

This week is going to suck as far as weight loss goes. I can already tell. My boyfriend and I got into it pretty bad last night and the very last thing I wanted to do was go tothe gym. So. I didn't. I also ate. Alot. I made cookies and pizza. And gobbled. And then I felt worse. Can't go tonight, can't go tomorrow, oh, and it's closed on Sunday. So that's 4 day no exercise. Great. Just .. awesome. :explode:

We're currently renting from his dad who lives 3 hours north of us and is an extreme clean freak. So he's coming into town this weekend and my boyfriend is all freaking out because the house isn't perfect. SO WHAT! I'm so sick of it! Not only because he freaks out about it but because he doesn't bother to get down to it and clean the house HIMSELF! :grumble: It's always my fault. Always. I'm so tired of it that I just blew up at him last night. I said some things I didn't mean and I feel bad about that, but for the most part.. I meant it. I'm not his Momma. I'm NOT going to clean up after him all the time. :mad:

I'm starting to actually resent myself for all these restrictions. I love working out, but I'm getting mad at myself because I can't eat what I want to eat. I'm starting to think... "why am I even bothering?" It's like I've lost focus of why I'm even doing this.

Not to mention i HATE MY JOB. We got a new manager about a month ago and she's just... horrible. I mean.. SHE isnt horrible.. but she's watching us so closely and she's turning us from Customer Service to Sales and I HATE sales... I get so frusterated because I'm constantly being watched and she nit picks everything we do on every call and I can't stand it. I'm going to be starting school in July for Accounting but graduating just can not come soon enough. And it's not like I can afford to quit.. I'd probably take a pay cut.

I know everyone has stuff like this going on in their lives its just that right now everything feels like it's crushing me. I'm so ready to give up on everything. Cleaning the house, going to the gym, eating right, school, work. I just... I don't want to DO anything.

Anyway, thanks for listening to my vent. I'm probably just in a bad mood cuz I haven't been sleeping very well lately either and I'm exhausted.

Thanks guys :flowerforyou:

GTOgirl1969

Don't give up...that's a little too much like letting the bad influences in your life (your BF, your boss) beat you!! Keep at it and be strong...you can do it.
They can only make you feel as low as you allow them to...so don't allow it anymore. Do it for you!
:drinker:

neverbeenskinny

Sometimes when it all hit the fan at the same time we just need to vent. Hope you feel better now. :flowerforyou:

sculley

It will be ok sweetie as for the bf you work as well you guys should be sharing chores, sounds like he has what my ex has. "a mommy complex" Keep your head up think happy thoughts

emtink

sounds you like you need a day off from work, boyfriend, and dad. so take it! do whatever you want tomorrow, if thats going to the gym, going for a walk, shopping, whatever you enjoy! :flowerforyou:

my husband's a slob, and i find that when i get really frustrated with him, getting away helps me calm down. then, i can come back home and calmly suggest that he take his dirty dishes to the kitchen

JMAMA

I am definitely hearing alot of negativity in your story, and rightfully so. It sounds as though you are frustrated, and burnt out. Try approaching each situation by changing the way you think about it, or perceive it. Changing the way you think about something influences your feelings, both good and bad. Go for a more positive outlook, it takes alot sometimes to dig down and find the good, but it will make you feel better...Hang in there, this is just a bump in the road, and you will soon be looking at it through your rear view mirror.

age1389

Sorry to hear about your rough time. You can count cleaning as exercise. To get an exact calorie count go to caloriesperhour.com

Keep your chin up things will get better:flowerforyou:

Adrienne

MontanaGirl

Sounds like you have a lot (maybe too much!) on your plate right now. And a baby to top it off. Wow. Maybe you can sit down w/ bf when both are calm and explain to him that with everything going on if he wants the house perfect, he's going to have to do his part other wise there's only so many hours in a day and only so much you can do? I don't know if he's even willing to help with this - but he needs to be. Otherwise you will have to ask yourself "Do I want to spend the rest of my life being mommy to someone who won't contribute?"

Otherwise - yes, count housecleaning calories as exercise - calories per hour is a great website! and hang in there - maybe take some time for yourself tomorrow, even if Mr. Neat-freak is there. :laugh:
I hope venting helped - take it a little easy on yourself too. We can't always do EVERYTHING!! :flowerforyou:

ToTheLove

Thanks alot guys, I do feel alot better after venting. jmama, you're right. I need to change my outlook on everything. In school once I learned that 10% of life it what happens to you and the other 90% is how you deal with it. I KNOW I can handle this, I've been through alot worse, I just need to keep reminding myself of that. Emtink, I think I will do whatever I want to do tomorrow. I AM going to go to the gym. I'll MAKE time. And I think I'm going to go visit my mom. I haven't seen her and my brothers for a while and I miss them.

And I AM going to count cleaning as exercise! Since that's what I'm going to be doing all night tonight!

Thanks alot guys. I feel alot better already! I just need to take things in stride and deal with them the best I can. Sometimes it just seems like a really good idea to run and hide!

Eliyan

Yes, count it. An hour of housework burns a RIDICULOUS amount of calories. You'll feel so much better when you see it.

I'm almost tempted to start cleaning! ...Almost.

sindyb9

Is that true that you can burn calories at a desk job?