Drill Sargent please

Yerblonde

Hi everyone! I was shocked to see there is a whole MFP family out here. I started MFP when a friend told me this is how she logs her food and we could keep each other motivated and be friends on here too. This worked for a few months until I let lazy take over and my friend did the same. So, I started to gain, gain, gain...again. I was only able to do so much with just the app on my phone so until we got real internet a few months ago, I never knew I could have more support than I have ever had before. This is exciting and as I slowly dig more into this site, the more I find I love!
Every friend I try and start a workout/healthy lifestyle with for motivation I say I need that drill Sargent, ruthless, takes no crap kind of person to help me because I know I have a LOT of excuses. As always though, I have really nice friends and they will back out just as I will on them.
This time though (since last May) I have been on the right path, depending on no one, doing it for me, sticking to it!! I have a lot to be proud of since May and just when I wanted to quit, I found the MFP community and started a Feb challenge that has been keeping me going!
But I feel I need more than that now. I need a personal community. I love to congratulate my friends when they say they worked out and have lost a few pounds. I love to encourage them when they are down and don't have the motivation. But I feel like I can only drag you so long before you prove to me that you really don't want to do it. I've been dragging my friends for a few months now and I am tired. I know when they are ready I will be here for them but I can't make them be ready.
I need you as much as you need me.
I have been slacking on logging my food and exercise but I have been exercising 5 days a week to keep up with the Feb challenge. My next goal is to make my diary public because I need to be more precise and detailed about my food and not just use something because it is already there and I don't have to look for a new item.
I am tired of the small lazy pieces of me and I need your help to keep me accountable. I need to be brutally honest with myself! This will not be easy but I'm not looking for easy. I'm looking for the ME I know I can and want to be!!!
Please feel free to call me on things and keep me straight. Outside eyes are better at seeing what I have blinded myself with.
Thank you in advanced because I know there will be times when I don't like what I have to do but in the end I know it is for the better.
Megan