Today was my first day at the gym in months!!!!!!!!!

sienaashleigh

So, after months of sitting on the couch, wishing my weight off instead of working it off and just slight eating improvements, I finally worked the courage my therapist has been helping me instill in myself and finally stepped into the gym and worked out for a good 25 mins! I mean, I did my full workout on the bike because all my muscles atrophied and I have back problems so the bike is the most comfortable for me at the moment, plus I would've worked out longer but I got there late because of helping my mom all day with errands, but I hope to return tomorrow. I'm scared I'm going to lose the motivation I had today and end up back to square one so I'm hoping for support and motivation from people & friends on here. Today was awesome though, I saw someone in the mirror today that I did not recognize, but it wasn't bad, it was good. It was an improved me, a motivated me. I had promised myself I was going to the gym last night, so I made sure I went today even if it was for a short while. I kept in my head the thing my therapist had told me, which was "remember what you're telling yourself if you procrastinate things" and so I made DAMN sure I did not let myself down today and put myself first. The normal me would've used any excuse I could've found to stay home and sit on my couch and watch tv. I woke up and had stomach problems, I could've used that easily, I took melatonin to help me with my sleeping problems for the first time last night and the pharmacist recommended to high of a dose so I highly overslept and STILL felt extremely groggy and tired and just wanted to stay in my pjs and stay in bed and sleep it off, I even CALLED my pharmacist asking if I should work out being this tired and have mistakenly taken the wrong dose of melatonin, and she said she wouldn't suggest it, my sister who said she'd go with me lost motivation and said she wouldn't go with me today and maybe some other day, and then returning from my errands only a half hour before the gym closed, and there I had it, ALL the EASIEST excuses in the world not to work out, all tickets out not to do it, but today I was dedicated. I loved who I was today. Nothing could stop me today. I got in that gym and even though the original instructions from my therapist were just to walk in the gym and get used to the environment and not have to work out or anything, I went the extra mile and worked out for 25 mins. I even talked to a trainer and asked him what I could do to build my muscle back, and even mentioned how I joined this site. He was super friendly, and all my fears of people judging me were wrong, in fact, there were people much heavier than me in there and they seemed pretty confident in themselves being there which made me feel silly. Then the best thing happened, when they were closing up and I had to get off the machine, I quickly asked the trainer to weigh me and so he did, apparently I dropped from 244 to 235-234. Apparently, the little improvements I have made with my diet even though I wasn't working out the past few months, have helped me drop 9-10 lbs. It was the perfect ending to my day. It was as if it were a sign from God, that all I needed to do was go to the gym and put in whatever I had and I'd find happiness. Just whatever I do I don't want to lose who I was today. I am so scared of returning back to that unmotivated, excuse-finding, stubborn person I usually am. Please, give me all your support. Thanks,
Siena.

RobinV_Seattle

Great job! It always seems like the hardest part is NOT talking yourself out of going, right? Once I get there, I'm fine - but going in the first place? Therein lies my biggest challenge!

I hope this a first step in getting it to be a habit. Add me if you like - I am more than happy to be a cheerleader for you!

StefieLou

Great job!!

Keep it up!

You can do it! =+)

Peanutbutterx

yaayy!! im so proud of you! i knew you could do it! thats really great, keep it up it'll all pay off