Unsure whether I should CUT or BULK

Maggot9

I'm having this whole complex in my head right now about whether I should cut or bulk starting March. This **** is literally hurting my brain. The whole "I want to cut body fat, but I want to get bigger at the same time" thing. I feel like I'm heavier than most guys, and most guys I watch and follow on Youtube, (215lbs, 5'11'', about 19% BF). It just confuses the **** out of me, the whole thing. I have 0 experience with doing a proper bulk or cut. I think I'm just naturally "thick", which is why I'm 215 at maintenance. Even since I started weight training I really haven't changed my diet besides trying to get more protein in me (I still don't think I get anywhere near 215 grams per day).

I haven't reached the "size" I want in terms of muscle, so is there any point to me even cutting? I really look up to and heed the advice of Elliot Hulse on youtube (videos follow). I feel exactly like how he describes in the first video below. It is such a mind**** and I can't bring myself to either cut or bulk. I've been maintaining all my damn life. Whenever I say to myself I'm going to cut, I look in the mirror and see that I'm not really that big, then my mind flips and says "nope, can't do that ****" and I start eating regular again.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MG3MQfIBEO8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W-ebyN7ZF48
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i34keQ6ZGe0

Sorry for the rant, any advice? ;_;

mdizzle99

I'm no expert (yet), but this is an article I found very insightful into the cutting/bulking dilemma. If you're 19% bf, this article will recommend cutting. It also depends what your goals are, however.

http://www.t-nation.com/free_online_article/sports_body_training_performance/the_truth_about_bulking