I think I finally hit rock bottom

DoriGaga

And this is not a bad thing.

I finally hit that point last night where I couldn't take one more thinking going wrong or being wrong in my life. I broke down and cried, like sobbed, just over everything. Then I wrote out a huge post on my profile about what a failure I am and how much I hate myself. Then I took a deep breath, stopped crying, and re-read my post. I looked at it and thought "no, this is not the person I am going to be." I deleted the post and decided from here on the ONLY possible direction is forward.

This is not just about my weight, this is about all aspects of me life that are messed up right now. I will not be a on-looker to my life's disaster anymore. From now on I will be taking an active role and I will be the one to determine how my life plays out. I don't want to say it can't get any worse, because I know it can, I just don't need it to get any worse, and I won't let it. Life is a bully and I'm not scared anymore, I'm fighting back! And I'm taking my power back. Right now.

StrongLife

The bottom sometimes can feel surprisingly feel like solid ground. One has to have been there before that statement can mean anything. Now let's take control and make it happen! I wish you the best.

blobby10

Well done on taking control. That's the hardest bit over with!

Good luck and remember there is lots of support on these boards.

B x

DoriGaga

The bottom sometimes can feel surprisingly feel like solid ground. One has to have been there before that statement can mean anything. Now let's take control and make it happen! I wish you the best.

Do you know I had heard that before, and it really didn't make sense to me until now.

MrsBozz1

Taking control of your life is so empowering! Live your life don't let life just happen to you! Good job! And good luck! I wish you the best, in weight loss and in life!

ZCJJ

Hang in there ... keep declaring whenever you feel horrible I believe I believe I believe .... and then take 10 slow long deep breaths .... that helps me and sometimes I have to do it twice. My son has autism, my baby girl died Dec 21, 2011, my ex takes me to court and my workload has been insane, and my weight sheesh my weight is why I am here..... I am only sharing this because rock bottom and feeling like your world is falling apart is a real sensation that many have known. Breath and believe - my thoughts are with you.

amyllu

YAY! Forward and DOWNWARDS!!

daniellemm1

I think it's ok that you hit bottom and cried it out. Everyone needs to do that every now and again, especially when faced with numerous life challenges at once. They victory here is that you were able to have that moment and then make the decision to move forward. Remember we all have struggles and it would be so easy to let them win but we are strong enough to overcome any struggle. You are not alone. You can do this.

DoriGaga

Thanks for all the support everyone! It's always so helpful to know that you are not alone! We are all in this together!!

BookofJenny

Wow. I feel the same way - my life has hit rock bottom lately, and after reading your post I know that this is NOT the person I want to be. As you said I'm fighting back, and I want to have an active role in MY life! I feel so ready to get back out there, be happy, healthy and positive about this whole journey Thank you!

SammieMozi1990

One thing i always like to tell myself when i am feeling down or feel like i am loosing control of my life, is that there is always someone out there in the world that is having a harder time than me. When life gets hard you need to know in your heart that you will get through it and be a stronger person for it.