Having a very hard time of it at the moment... :-(

slieber

I actually took a vacation from this site for about a month (give 'r take) and from the Weight Watchers point watching, to see what would happen. I lost, gained and lost the same 2 pounds. I wasn't sure with the level of exercise about how much to eat, because it seemed when I WAS "good", taking my points levels for the exercise, etc. I didn't lose or gain. When I was "bad" - eating what I liked, but in more moderate quantities, I lost weight.

Now I've hurt my back (slip and fall - and yes, I'm VERY angry about it because it was preventable!!), so can't exercise as much, and emotionally, I just want to give up and eat, eat, eat all the wrong things. I'm fortunate enough not to have most of that stuff in the house, but it still is worrying.

Professionally and personally, except for the back issue (getting better but it still p*sses me off that it happened months of work at coming back from a badly broken ankle), there's no real reason for me to want to eat, eat, eat all the wrong things. I've gone down about 3 dress sizes since July - just bought my first pair of jeans in years, because the old ones won't stay on my hips (YAY!). Donated the other pairs to Goodwill, too. Get compliments on the weight loss, but still see the rolls on my stomach and around my upper body. :-(

Tonight, for the first time in a while, I was "good" - didn't just eat what I wanted but controlled it. I feel full, and sleepy, thank heavens, so will be off to bed shortly. I would say I ate to the points level, exercised only a bit to keep myself in some semblance of shape (ballet, 15 mins of mild exercise) and left it at that. The calorie log says I did okay in terms of calories, which I'm pleased about.

Sorry if I'm rambling, but I'm just wondering what the h*ll is going on inside me that's making me feel like I don't care anymore. I mean, I do care, but it's like the will to keep going's gone out of me! I want to lose about 20 more pounds by the start of June, because I'm going to a dance camp in another state. At this rate, it's not going to happen...

slieber

I actually took a vacation from this site for about a month (give 'r take) and from the Weight Watchers point watching, to see what would happen. I lost, gained and lost the same 2 pounds. I wasn't sure with the level of exercise about how much to eat, because it seemed when I WAS "good", taking my points levels for the exercise, etc. I didn't lose or gain. When I was "bad" - eating what I liked, but in more moderate quantities, I lost weight.

Now I've hurt my back (slip and fall - and yes, I'm VERY angry about it because it was preventable!!), so can't exercise as much, and emotionally, I just want to give up and eat, eat, eat all the wrong things. I'm fortunate enough not to have most of that stuff in the house, but it still is worrying.

Professionally and personally, except for the back issue (getting better but it still p*sses me off that it happened months of work at coming back from a badly broken ankle), there's no real reason for me to want to eat, eat, eat all the wrong things. I've gone down about 3 dress sizes since July - just bought my first pair of jeans in years, because the old ones won't stay on my hips (YAY!). Donated the other pairs to Goodwill, too. Get compliments on the weight loss, but still see the rolls on my stomach and around my upper body. :-(

Tonight, for the first time in a while, I was "good" - didn't just eat what I wanted but controlled it. I feel full, and sleepy, thank heavens, so will be off to bed shortly. I would say I ate to the points level, exercised only a bit to keep myself in some semblance of shape (ballet, 15 mins of mild exercise) and left it at that. The calorie log says I did okay in terms of calories, which I'm pleased about.

Sorry if I'm rambling, but I'm just wondering what the h*ll is going on inside me that's making me feel like I don't care anymore. I mean, I do care, but it's like the will to keep going's gone out of me! I want to lose about 20 more pounds by the start of June, because I'm going to a dance camp in another state. At this rate, it's not going to happen...

deanea

:frown: :flowerforyou:

backontrac

YOU MADE IT THROUGH TODAY...HURRRAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYY!!! Yes !!!! COngrats...
Tomorrow is a new challenge.. grab the morning and RUN with the day...look at the morning as another day closer to the goal !!!
You CAN do this!!!!:flowerforyou:

chimpoco

One day at a time.

emtink

i hate this quote but...

'that which does not kill us only makes us stronger'

you've been through something very difficult, celebrate your recovery and congratulate yourself on your hard work. you earned it!:flowerforyou:

NurseBarb

It's emotional eating. Most of us experience it some shape or form. Just be conscious of it and realize that even with the back trouble you can still control yourself. I'm a stress eater. At the first sign of a problem I want to run to the fridge and cram my mouth full of cheescake or something. I was raised in the South and we aren't kidding when we say "comfort" food. I was raised to feel that if anything goes wrong you just need to be comforted with some food and so that's my first instinct.
I'm learning to break the habit but it's ingrained and its very difficult.

sindyb9

I was also raised as comfort food will help anything. But I have learning to break that habit. Sometimes I give in. But just get up and start a fresh day. Beating yourself up just makes you want that comfort food. You will do great.

slieber

Been okay so far since the last post. Thanks for the support! Now just tired all the time. I know it's Spring Break (yes, I do that job of jobs - teaching) and, for me, it's normal to want to sleep away the first 24 hours. I pretty much did that! Had PLANNED to go swimming today but that didn't happen.

What I did was eat a lot of the "no-count" soup last week, which made me feel full. I'm going to make up another big pot of it and freeze it in containers, so I can do it again as needed. I only have 3 servings left.

I still, now, want to eat, but not horrible stuff. Again, having motivation problems with regard to exercise (yes, back still is a problem), but I want to get back on doing what I used to do!!

Thanks again for all the help!! I'm still feeling out of it, but not as bad as before. :ohwell: