Thick Thirties

jewels319

As states I am in my thick thirties......wanna be back in my thin twenties....stuck in 70's...weight...not era! Although the disco and drugs did keep people quite thin.... Feel like sharing, venting....whatever feel free.
Ok so...I am 35...hitting 36 in Oct. My countdown clock is a pic I took yrs ago "98" in the Bahamas......I already had my first child who was 9 months old I was a whopping 180 plus when i delivered him. By the time that trip rolled around I was back to 125....which was 10 lbs more than when I got preg.Now I have had another child since then. So two yrs ago....Nov 08 we went to Aruba.....sort of a ten yr vaca anniversary trip. ...I have over the yrs gotten you know comfortable in my skin and got real comfortable with the refrigerator, supermarket, and all the wonderous fast food places known to man which in pictures holy lord...I got two hams for thighs.....lots of extra biscuits in the middle.....and my butt jiggles like the gravy for the biscuits. Did I mention I also have a great husband who no matter how much I weight loves me which I guess is also one of the probs.....I do not like how much weight I have gained.....or how I look and feel. Him on the other hand....says no big deal....he loves me regardless.....so I know i should do it for me.....technically at 35 and a height of 5.6......150's is practical...and a good weight for me according to various sites....believe it or not....155 which is the high side. I would love to get down to the 140's.....Jesus..if I could pull 130's I am pretty damn sure I can con a really good getaway out of him which just might include nude tanning! He would not object! But you know the worst part....staying with the plan....thank god its warmer easier to keep busy which is less eating. Tomorrow morning I am starting a 14 day cleanse and burn which I mentioined awhile ago, bought but put in cabinet. I am going to weigh in the morning so I have an accurate weight...then starting.....I really dont wanna fall off my routine this time. Wish me luck....and bikini here I come....not teeny bikini...cuz lets face it folks.....teenage yrs are gone....I dont need them back.