STAM of Three Kids with a body that shows!
Hi everyone, My name is Sinfullysweet (can call me Sin for short) and I am a stay at home mother of three kids. A 15,12,and 8 year old. My husband is a long haul driver meaning he is gone all week so all responsibilities of maintaining a family fall to me, which I love!
The only downfall is that at 34 years old and with a 5'4 height, I should NOT be weighing 210 lbs. I am officially in the obese category with my BMI. This terrifies me. Every one of my family members has heart problems or diabetes. And to top it all off I smoke. (Not for lack of trying to quit, attempted to quit over 23 times, do good for a month or year then pick them back up when I get stressed) I suffer from severe depression, most of it is due to how I look. After having three kids, my body is wrecked. I look like a tiger on most of my body from stretch marks, I have had them ever since my first child at 19 years old. On my arms, all on my stomach, legs, you name it. Before having my baby, I was 125lbs and so proud of the way I looked.
I have tried every diet out there known to man. I wish I was joking but sadly I am not. After speaking to my doctor, we found out my body only processes a minute amount of sugar that intake, and the rest goes directly to storage around my organs. Meaning I can work out, cut out calories etc, but if I indulge in a candy bar or my tonic of choice (sweet tea) everything I have done for the day has been thrown out the window.
Plus I cannot do any extreme dieting due to the fact again I have three kids. Not only do I suffer with ADHD, unfortunately my genetics have passed down to them. And as anyone knows, ADHD medicine is a stimulant that causes appetite loss. So when I cook, I cook so that they do not lose weight but maintain weight for healthy growth with complex carbs and protein. I realize I am at an impasse. Cook for me to lose weight, or cook to maintain the weight of my kids. Or double the groceries and cook two meals. (Yeouch! Grocery prices are sky high as it is!)
And I will admit, I used to have a lazy side. For the longest time I was a big time gamer and would park this big ol rear end on the couch and play games after my morning chores. Probably why my tummy, butt and thighs are badonkadonk size. Gaming can be an addiction of it's own. I think I finally beat that one though. I uninstalled all my games, except for pogo.com, (I play solitare to wind down for the night)
Wow, this turned out to be a longer introduction letter than I originally thought. To summarize, my goals are such:
To be a healthy weight. I will never be skinny, I have too much muscle under all this padding.
To get a healthier heart.
To make a food lifestyle change that will not harm my kids growth.
To stop smoking.
To go from 210lbs to 180lbs. Once I reach that goal, then I will attempt to get to 160lbs.
My last and most important goal, is to hopefully influence my husband who is a truck driver to eat healthy as well. This year alone, they have lost 5 fellow drivers to heart attacks, stomach issues, strokes and the like. He has already had a stress heart attack when he was 33 years old. I don't want to lose him if I can inspire him instead.
So there you have it, my life story *laughs*. I will be more than happy to befriend you and hopefully we can both give each other that extra umph to keep proceeding!
Hugs,
Sinfullysweet
