Absolutely STUCK - HELP!!!!!!

1luckygal

I feel like I'm falling and there is nobody around to help, no ledge to catch me.... at first I was reaching desperately to cling to something, searching for a hand to grab mine, but as I fall further I find myself just telling myself to accept the fact that there is no help......

I have been STUCK at the weight of 195 for about 3-4 years. I used to be a very healthy 145 and that would be my absolute ideal weight. In '09 I got pregnant, lost the baby at 16 weeks. Twice in '10 I got pregnant. Lost those babies. After the 3rd loss I started rapidly gaining weight (didn't change any habits/eating/working out etc.) I hired a personal trainer and started a strict diet. I GAINED weight and GAINED body fat - my personal trainer was stumped. I quit. I got pregnant early '11 and lost that baby. We tried again and for a year couldn't get pregnant. I was sent to an infertility specialist - diagnosed with PCOS, placed on some medicine. I started a strict diet again and was working out 30 mins a day, every day. I went from 197 to 183 and then I got pregnant. Almost lost the baby in the beginning but this one finally stuck! I gained 50lbs during pregnancy.. I was up to 237 on my due date. I am now 9 months post pregnancy and have lost almost all 50 of those pounds,.. however, I've hit that 195 mark and am stuck again.

I feel like I have tried everything. I am on week 8 of P90X, 0lbs lost - 0inches lost. I hoover around 190-193 and just can't get anything to budge. I started boosting my protein intake. I was at around 12-15% protein (and didn't even think I was taking in that many carbs) so I now try to keep my protein around 40% or more - no change. I had bloodwork done and my thyroid is fine. The only thing low was Iron and Vitamin D was right at 30 but nothing they seemed concerned over. I work my butt off an hour or more every day, eat healthy and in my mind I could very well just be eating junk food and not working out and look the same.

I don't understand - I am hoping that there is somebody out there than can help me. 3 Dr.s now have told me that it's just my PCOS and there's not much I can do - but I'm tired of hearing that. It can't be true. I have 0 self-confidence. It is hurting my marriage. I just want to be healthy for myself, for my son, my family. Dr.s want me to start back on meds for baby #2 this summer but I want to drop at LEAST 20lbs before I get pregnant again.

HOPE SOMEONE CAN HELP!
(I would post pics but I don't know how......)