Feeling like a Failure

skump425

Here's my story, today I am feeling like I will never see the results I want...

Oct 2011 I made a decision to get fit for Ultra 2012 (music festival). I started going to the gym atleast 3 times a week and eating under 1200 cals a day. I got down to my lowest weight as an adult and truly felt amazing about myself. Once the festival in March was over, I started slacking a little bit and started gaining back.

Since April 2012 I have gone on and off the wagon as far as eating and working out. Since December I have been working out about an avg of 2 days a week and eating pretty well, about 1300-1500 cals a day. Since my lowest weight, 124, I am now back at 134-136 (probably the highest since adulthood).

For some reason I cannot commit the way I did back in October. Whenever I jump back on the wagon I dont see results or I feel like I cant cut out so much of my favorite foods and activities. I don't know what it is going to take to get me back where I was...I thought being a maid of honor in my older sisters wedding would do it, but that wedding is 4 weeks away and I am no smaller or more toned than I was when I found out.

I don't want people saying that 134 is smaller than they will ever be and that I should be happy with where I am because I am a small girl and I do not feel in shape at all and I want to get back to atleast 130 and just feel less flabby.

Does anyone have any ideas to send a jolt through my system to get me back on track for good?

leahartmann

You´re not a failure, you´re human...! :flowerforyou: Many have done the same. DO NOT eat less than 1200 calories, 1500 sounds more like it, maybe more. It´s a lot of reading, but check out:

http://www.myfitnesspal.com/topics/show/937712-in-place-of-a-road-map-ver-3-0?hl=in-place-of-a-road-map

And yes, you have to work out of some kind. I use to take a long walk every day, but just started lifting heavy to tone up. Don´t give yourself an ultimatum to lose x lbs in x days. A realistic goal is fine, but this is for life. Some have the strenght to change their life overnight- I don´t, I had to take one small step at the time. Find what motivates you, what makes you feel good. Make a list of realistic goals (eat more vegetables, drink more water, work out every monday- whatever) and work at them one at the time. Make it a habit and move on to the next.

I don´t know if this is at any help. Just don´t give up. We all have days where we feel discouraged. Just hang in there!