Starting over... 219.8 lbs...

jecroisenlamour

Hi, my name is Kristina. My username used to be kmmcquay. I decided to start over because I kept logging in my old account and would log junk food in my diary. So I do not want to look back and make me think, asking myself, why did I even let junk food in my diary in the first place? I do not want to go back to the diary where I think it's okay to eat junk food. I don't want that anymore. I don't want to make excuses anymore. I was fine before spring came. After spring, my motivation went down the tube. I have been yo-yoing my diet and I fell back in my old habits hard mainly because I was going through a bit of a rough patch and I let it took control of me. My self-esteem isn't that great but now I'm writing letters to myself in a positive way so I can look back and read letters to be inspired rather than being a downer.

So I would certainly like to add some friends who also are in need of major support, so we would know we're not alone. So I WOULD acknowledge that I am not alone and that I am capable of overcoming my fears.

I am also looking for better ways of exercising so I can actually enjoy. There are some I actually do enjoy. Zumba, doing the elliptical machine (although I need to do better than doing the same level over and over), swimming and biking. Fact is that I got way too lazy. I tried running. Never liked running on the treadmill at the gym. Tried running outside but I always felt running is so long, I ended up going back to the house like 10-15 minutes later. I want to have the patience and find ways to really push myself, no matter what I think, with my mind tricking me thinking that I can't do it. I don't want to confront "can'ts" anymore. I want to confront "can". I know I CAN do it. I just need to stop telling myself that I don't want to do it. I need to do it. I have to do it.

Keep a good look at some of the threads that I would create topics to find tips, ideas, advices... I want to help you, just as you also have helped me in the past. So please, add me and I will also add you.

Thank you & much appreciated.

bitterbrownie

I've added the new you because we were friends before it takes great courage and commitment to do what you just did and i know that you'll find the motivation and reach your goals! Of course there are rough patches but they make life and while we may not conquer them we learn to deal better and find an easier way

go you!

abheshek

great! feel free to add me

xxghost

Welcome back! It takes a strong individual to come back here. You should be proud of yourself just for creating a new account!