Need some friends and motivation.

Hello everyone! My name is Sara. Alright so about me, I have been married to my wonderful husband Jeremy for almost 6 years now and he is my rock. We have 3 beautiful children Jacob is 5, Ashlynn is 3 and Jackson is 1. While dating Jeremy pretty much after I graduated from high school I was only about 140 lbs, but when I got pregnant with Jacob in 2006 it changed alot. I hadn't gained a whole lot during the pregnancy but when I had him it was a whole other story. We were hoping that I was going to be able to do it naturally but that all changed when my blood pressure went sky high and Jacob's heart rate dropped, Within a matter of minutes I was in the OR prepping for a c-section. I was able to lose a little bit of weight after that but not much. A year and a half later we decided that we were going to try for another baby, due to me having PCOS (Polycystic ovary syndrome) it was hard for me to get pregnant again. Finally we got the good news that I was pregnant with our daughter (by the way Jeremy was convinced even after we found out the sex that it was a boy...when we were in the delivery room and they said "its a girl" he finally believed it lol). Exactly 2 years and 2 weeks after Jacob was born we welcomed Ashlynn via c-section. This is when my weight REALLY started to go downhill. I had gained about 50 lbs with Ashlynn and that was on top of whatever I had gained with Jacob, unfortunately along with gaining weight I also fell into the depression trap. For about 3 years now I have been battling PPD and still am to this day. Again, two years after Ashlynn was born we found out that I was pregnant with our 3rd and last child Jackson. On top of all the weight that I had gained from the other two I gained again and that is where I am struggling today. Here I sit 100 pounds heavier then I was in high school and I cry EVERY TIME I have to look in the mirror, not because of the kids but because I let myself go to the point that I am just not happy in my own skin anymore. Jackson is a year old now and I am still 100 + lbs overweight and that has got to change starting now. I did forget to mention between having Jacob and Ashlynn I did go see my doctor and we decided that it would be a good idea to start WW. After doing that for a few months and there was no improvement I quit. I probably have taken ever diet pill on the planet (but we all know that most of them do not work anyway) and the last choice that I thought I had was to get some kind of weight loss surgery in which I knew I couldn't afford to begin with so it was not an option. My husband travels a lot due to his job and is sometimes gone for 2 weeks at a time and last month I lost my Grammy to cancer and not even 2 weeks later lost my Great Aunt whom was 97 to cancer as well. 2013 did not start off too great for me and I am struggling more than ever. I am mostly a stay at home mom but in between taking my kids to pre school and kindergarten and making time for Jackson there really is not a lot of time for just me. After this experience I am praying that I will feel better about myself and have a greater outlook on life. I want to be here for my husband and my kids. They are what makes me want to wake up every morning. Thank you again for taking this journey with me.

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  • Stacyharward
    Stacyharward Posts: 3 Member
    Good for you Sara! Everyone has to start somewhere! It is hard to lose weight. Try not to focus on what you haven't been able to do in the past and set your find to the future. Put the two youngest in a double stroller and go walking! Any type of exercise will improve your chances of losing. Like you, I have tried the fad diets and pills. I have come to realize that I just need to make better food choices and get moving. It is still hard and it won't come off overnight, but you can do it!!
  • starfinale
    starfinale Posts: 309 Member
    You can do this Sara!!!! Be a fighter! Your kids will be proud to see their mother succeed!

    There are great supportive people on here. you can add me if you'd like!! I have 100 + to lose! I need new active friends.
  • canadianvampyregurl
    canadianvampyregurl Posts: 231 Member
    Hi Sara !!! im Angela :) you can do this !!!! i am going to add you as a friend :) the friends on my page are very helpful, supportive and motivating !! together, we can make this journey
  • kmac0506
    kmac0506 Posts: 1
    Hi Sara!
    It sounds like you're a great mom and wife--keep trying, you have friends here. I tried to lose the last 5-10lbs of baby weight(15 years after having my baby!) and then gained 10lbs more when my son left home for college. Like you, my husband and son are my life's blood and I spend my waking moment taking care of other people. Short of trying the diet pills and gastric bypass I struggled with workout programs and diets that didn't seem to work. Lately, I discovered working out to Zumba Core and Zumba2. Every other day I'll do Zumba Core in the morning and Zumba2 in the late afternoon. Then switch every other day Zumba Core. I've been doing this for a week and already I can feel a change in my walk and even in my clothes. Before, I was doing Zumba four times a week and tried to maintain the 1200/calories/day but I felt I wasn't losing weight or I had gained weight and it was frustrating. I stopped weighing myself everyday as that was getting me depressed since the scale wasn't moving, but since trying out the new routine I can tell by looking in the mirror that my body is being sculpted. So, I'm hopeful that this new workout is the one for me. Don't give up, you just have to find what works for you. We're not all made the same way so one person's diet and workout may not work for you. I almost gave up, but decided to give it another try and I feel and look better now. You can do it Sara....just keep trying, girl!