What choo lookin' at?

ajewellmom

I am in this battle to become healthy, and I have to admit I am starting to feel pretty darned good about myself. I have lost 45 pounds, but more importantly I am able to walk up a flight of stairs without panting, ride my bike without freaking out if I come to a minor incline etc. I have a long way to go, but these things keep me motivated, for certain.

It's funny, though, that I am now more self-conscious about how people look at me. It's like I want to shout when they glance at me, "I'm down 45 pounds already and you just watch me as I keep on going!!!" or "Yes, I am fat, but I was fatter!!".

Anyone else feel like they want to defend themselves, even when nobody has spoken a word?

onwarddownward

Absolutely! Soldiers don't stop being soldiers just because the battle is over!

Jan

Lizzy622

They may not be staring for the reason you think they are. I had a person roll down her window and tell me how inspiring I was to her. She parked there every week(waiting for a child in karate) and saw me walking by her car every week. Just think they may be thinking, "Wow! She is looking good."

ajewellmom

I guess I should be more clear. I don't necessarily feel that people are looking for any bad reason or with any judgment, but I have lived with such insecurity for so long that I feel I need to justify who I am and where I am at this stage in my healthy walk.