In recent accident and in need of encouragement.

teagin2002

I wish I could go out for a walk without feeling dizzy and nauseated. I wish I could go sit by the pool without getting migraines.
I hate not being in control of my body and not knowing how to fix it. I thank my doctor and my physical therapist for helping me get back on track. These past few days are my first days off work since a very long time ago and I am stuck here in bed to allow my brain along with my body the time to recuperate.
I miss the world, my colleagues, running and swimming too.

I am the person who cares for all, who has all the solutions to find harmony, and now I am the person seeking solutions. I am in a position where I have to allow others to care for me, I know I should be enjoying it but I don't like it. I feel useless and unnecessary. I can't wait for my brain to heal, then I can start working on healing my body.

I actually went grocery shopping today, my doctor warned me not to but I did it anyway. I couldn't stand staying in bed all the time. He was rite, after walking through a few isles I got dizzy and disoriented. The world got distorted in my eyes and I had to go out.
I miss being the strong one, I miss being independent, I miss being me.
If there are mistakes, please forgive me. I just started typing again yesterday since the accident last Friday.

brynnsmom

First, so sorry to hear about your accident. It sounds like you are the person others lean on heavily - it's hard when the tables are turned. But the kindest thing you can do for yourself right now is to allow others to help you and time to recover, so you can get back to being you that much faster. Easier said than done, I am sure - but best of luck.

justonge

Hi. First, english is not my first langage so sorry for mystakes. I was sick 1 year ago. I developped 'zona' and i'm am 35. It was very difficult because i was no able to have a ordinary day, walking, swimming.... I was so tired, cannot do nothing. But i listen to my doctor and take time too recuparate. The 'zona' can go or cannot! In decembre, for christmas, the 'zona' disappear! I want to train myself but cannot do a lot of workout because i was not in shape. I quit smoking in febuary, and start a fitness training. Now, i'm in good shape but i need to rest because the 'zona' can came back. So, don't be worry. Just take time too get healtier. I know it's hard but have hope for futur. Focus yourself one day per one day. Track your accumplishement! Good luck.

liftreadphilosophize

I wish I could go out for a walk without feeling dizzy and nauseated. I wish I could go sit by the pool without getting migraines.
I hate not being in control of my body and not knowing how to fix it. I thank my doctor and my physical therapist for helping me get back on track. These past few days are my first days off work since a very long time ago and I am stuck here in bed to allow my brain along with my body the time to recuperate.
I miss the world, my colleagues, running and swimming too.

I am the person who cares for all, who has all the solutions to find harmony, and now I am the person seeking solutions. I am in a position where I have to allow others to care for me, I know I should be enjoying it but I don't like it. I feel useless and unnecessary. I can't wait for my brain to heal, then I can start working on healing my body.

I actually went grocery shopping today, my doctor warned me not to but I did it anyway. I couldn't stand staying in bed all the time. He was rite, after walking through a few isles I got dizzy and disoriented. The world got distorted in my eyes and I had to go out.
I miss being the strong one, I miss being independent, I miss being me.
If there are mistakes, please forgive me. I just started typing again yesterday since the accident last Friday.

I'm so sorry. I know how hard it is to feel out of control of your health, happiness and well-being. I hope you can keep in mind that our dependence on others is part of what is beautiful about being human -- even in those times when we don't have a great support system. It is a beautiful thing to be limited, imperfect, and weak in certain times of our life. It shows our humanity and gives us a deeper way to empathize with others, something that sounds to be a huge part of who you are to begin with. I hope you can focus on the goodness of the people around you who are helping you and in turn help them by communicating how much you appreciate the goodness in them that inspired them to help you. Just as much as you enjoy helping others, those who help you enjoy the chance to give back some of what you have given them. If you can let them do it, you will find some happiness in it (even in the midst of the struggle). Best of luck and healing thoughts to you.

PS -- it will pass sooner than you think. You'll be up and running around again in no time. :-)

PPS -- make sure to be kind to yourself and not expect more from your body than it can deliver.

5ftnFun

I'm so sorry about your accident and surely hope that you are going to achieve 100% recovery. Being down and out is hard for anyone. I won't say "Smile, it'll get better" because people said that to me years ago when I had a health issue and it did NOT help.
If you are looking at a long road to recovery, I would recommend counseling. Depression is common among people who are injured or who are seriously ill, and sometimes we just need a little help.

teagin2002

Ty you very much for your kind words
I will work on remembering that I need to care for myself as I care for others. I love myself very much and who I am, I need to switch the focus from working out and eating right to giving my body the rest it needs and eating right.
I know I am improving greatly each day, so I am happy about that.
I am used to pushing my body physically and to not be able to do simple tasks like go for a walk because of a brain injury, is very hard to swallow.
I will follow my doctor's direction and focus on resting, my goal is to be able to go swimming by the end of the weekend.

iggyboo93

First of all, congrats on the amazing weight loss! Secondly, hoping you heal soon. And thirdly, SMACK upside the head!! What the hell are you doing out of bed???? Follow doctor's orders and rest until you are feel 100%. Heck with groceries - the hubby is a big boy - he can get the groceries for a short period of time and take care of the family - the family didn't fire you - you are just on short term disability for a couple of days. Seriously take this time to rest and recuperate. If I were you, I would be catching up on sleep, watching some really bad television shows and healing thy self. :flowerforyou: