Eating disorder/exercise addiction suffers

Pandasarecool

Hey all,

First, let me start off by saying that I don't want any negativity on this thread, I have been hurt enough.:flowerforyou:
OK, this is really hard for me, but here goes. ..
I have been suffering for the past year or so with depression coupled with anorexia and compulsive/addicting exercise. I am still getting over the anorexia and exercise problem, and I am on medication for the depression. The main reason I am using this site is so that I can make sure I am getting around 2000 calories a day, which is really difficult for me physically and mentally because I had my body used to eating around 800-900 a day, and exercising for 2-3 hours each day everyday. I am down to 1-1.5 hours of exercise (mostly workout videos, fitness blender, Leslie Sansone, old exercise TV on you tube etc.) 4 days a week. But I am still constantly plagued my obsessive thoughts on exercise. I plan my day (my life) around my workouts, and I hate and dread them every single day. I am also still obsessing over my food, but it is slowly getting a bit better.
I want to know if there is anyone else like me out there who has/had this problems or has overcome them. I need help to get over this, some days I just feel so hopeless and alone, and like I will never be able to stop thinking/worrying about exercise. If anyone can help, I would be extremely grateful. Even if you would be willing to just share your story, I would appreciate it. :ohwell:

Thanks,
Erin

Pandasarecool

Just to clear things up, I am 19 years old, I used to be overweight as a child, now I am 5'7" and 112 pounds. My lightest was 105 pounds and my doctor threatened to admit me if I did not gain some weight and get healthier. My heaviest was when I was 17 or so and 170 pounds. Thnx!

xDawnsgrace

I'm trying to. :flowerforyou: I was down to almost nothing for a while. I decided it was time to try and recover.
^-^

I do wish you luck, and i know you're going to be okay<3 :flowerforyou:

DanaHerro

I don't have any advice, but I just want to say that you have taken an AMAZING first step towards getting yourself healthy both physically and emotionally. (((HUGE HUGS))) to you. I can tell you that you are fighter and want to take control of your life and your body and you seem to be in a place to absolutely do it.

Best of luck to you and surround yourself with love and supportive people!!!

CrazyTrackLady

Hey all,

First, let me start off by saying that I don't want any negativity on this thread, I have been hurt enough.:flowerforyou:
OK, this is really hard for me, but here goes. ..
I have been suffering for the past year or so with depression coupled with anorexia and compulsive/addicting exercise. I am still getting over the anorexia and exercise problem, and I am on medication for the depression. The main reason I am using this site is so that I can make sure I am getting around 2000 calories a day, which is really difficult for me physically and mentally because I had my body used to eating around 800-900 a day, and exercising for 2-3 hours each day everyday. I am down to 1-1.5 hours of exercise (mostly workout videos, fitness blender, Leslie Sansone, old exercise TV on you tube etc.) 4 days a week. But I am still constantly plagued my obsessive thoughts on exercise. I plan my day (my life) around my workouts, and I hate and dread them every single day. I am also still obsessing over my food, but it is slowly getting a bit better.
I want to know if there is anyone else like me out there who has/had this problems or has overcome them. I need help to get over this, some days I just feel so hopeless and alone, and like I will never be able to stop thinking/worrying about exercise. If anyone can help, I would be extremely grateful. Even if you would be willing to just share your story, I would appreciate it. :ohwell:

Thanks,
Erin

Awww, sweetie. I feel for you. I do hope you find your inner strength and peace to overcome this situation. Are you hooked up with a great support system and team of experts to help you? This place can be brutal, and cruel at times. (I am one of those point blank folks myself, but not to people truly hurting inside and out).

Please friend me if you want -- I promise not to bring you down.

quirkytizzy

The fact that you are working towards recovery is enough for anyone to respond with kindness. I'm glad you are reaching out towards health. This is strong and brave.

nothingwithoutHim

Hiya. :flowerforyou:

I feel your pain...long story short, I am about the same age as you and have the same sort of tendencies you have as well (anorexia, depression, over exercise) but I can say this: it WILL get better!

Honestly what is making the most difference for me is my faith, family, and the most awesome group of friends ever right here on MFP. Don't ever underestimate the power of friends rallying around you who KNOW what ED is and how to deal and give advice....but still be there to give hugs and encouragement too.

Find an activity that you TRULY love, and try cutting back little by little, the other stuff that you feel like you HAVE to do.

Lastly, believe that you ARE worth the fight! It's hard, but learning to love your body is a crucial step in feeling like you DON'T have to punish it.

Def give this article a read if you have time, this woman is amazing and gives some great advice.http://www.thegreatfitnessexperiment.com/2012/11/8-tips-for-overcoming-an-exercise-addiction-from-a-girl-whos-living-it.html

((((HUGS))))