Hello from me

Silverwolf73

I am Debbie and I am ashamed to say that I allowed myself to get to the huge weight of 304Ibs at only 5ft 6in, when I summed up the courage to stand on those scales my heart plummeted through the floor!...this was back in January and I have since lost 41Ibs already feel much better about myself (if only a little) I wish I had of started this journey earlier instead of waiting for my 40th year!...my story is a long one but probably more common than one would care to admit! I don't recall ever being slim but I had a happy upbringing got into an abusive relationship young, fell pregnant at 17 escaped the ex, I then spent the next ten years hiding from men, scared of being abused, hurt etc... Blah blah blah.... But mostly the confidence was knocked out of me and I was and still am emotionally scared so I ate, much to much when I met my now husband I was a size 18 and after having 6 more pregnancies, one of which M/C and our first baby decided to be born to soon at 23+5 weeks, she didn't survive. We then went onto have four boys our second was born with Down Syndrome, and third has a speech disorder so I guess you could say my life is busy but I know it's not as physical as it should be and I guess emotionally damaged but I am determined to get myself back now. Looking forward to getting to know you