Living Fat in a Skinny World

About a year or so ago I started to write down things that I saw through my eyes as a fat person. I wasn't sure what I was going to do with it and kind of forgot about it till today while looking on hard drive and there it was. Remember these were thoughts I had before I started this new lifestyle.


There is no plan of us being fat, getting there is so easy. Eat a little more than you expel. The worst part is food is everywhere in just about every store you ever visit. They are on commercials begging you to buy them. Stop by that restaurant on your way home. Then go sit in that recliner and watch tv showing you more food. There is no way to outlaw food to keep you away, they even enhance the foods to drive you back and make you buy more. The bad thing about being fat is you can’t hide it. We have miles and miles of rolls to show our weight. Many movies and shows show us as people that have to have food all the time we walk around with drums sticks in our hands. We’re shown chasing the ice cream truck down the road. There are large platters of food in front of us as we bury our heads with sauces all over our faces. Many would be surprised how little food some fat people eat. Sure there are those that eat anything and everything around them but not all.
Being fat we have to think differently than thin people, for example when we see a bridge we think how strong is it? When we visit a restaurant we have to wonder if we’re going to fit in the booth, or are the chairs strong enough to hold our weight? Then there are the seats that are bolted down and booths. They are basically guillotines for fat people. They cut us off right where it counts; the food can only go in our mouths we can’t get it past those damn tables. Will we fit through the door or get stuck half way through? Then the ridicule for being fat, many cat call or moo at us some throw food or drinks at us. Some even give you the disgusted look as if you are contagious. When we walk into a store some will run to the back. They won’t even give us a chance to even talk to them. For years I’ve been on diets some worked some didn’t many have a great plan going in but nothing to maintain.
My main problem is cravings and addictions. I sometimes feel that need for beef or chocolate and as bad as it is for me I will find it. I know what a drug addict feels like they need that cocaine or crack even that marijuana. I have to have that cheeseburger or steak. Those peanut butter and chocolate candies scream at me in my sleep. They have them all over the stores too, not just in the candy aisle. They will be back by the movies, over near the camping stuff and even in the dairy area. You can’t run fast enough to get away from them. For every food there is a diet to match. There are the low-fat, the low-carb, the cottage cheese and grapefruit, the rice and wine, to many to explain. The last one I heard was the 3 on, 3 off diet. For 3 days you only drink juices and water then for 3 days you eat everything you want. Diets can work and make you look better and feel better.
Being fat and getting diagnosed with a deadly disease, the silent killer. Yes Diabetes a debilitating disease killing you without you even knowing. You are thirstier; you visit the restroom many times a day and night. You just don’t feel right. You would think hearing Diabetes you would get on the straight and narrow and get my butt healthy. No the chocolate calls out the late night burgers scream my name. I have tried to substitute other items in place of the chocolate and the burgers but to no avail I’m looking for those flavors and I HAVE to have them.

You would think reading this that I would have done something for myself to get this weight off. It took talking to my new doctor telling me that food is killing me to get things going in the right direction. I proud to say that I have found a lifestyle that I can live with I have my head on straight. I have a plan and I'm going to do it.