disappointed in myself

I've been working so hard and have gone from an all-time high of 213 to 188. Five of those pounds I lost when I started MFP, and then I've been battling a plateau for about 10 days. Last night, I lost control. After I completed my log last night and the kids went to bed, I ate about 600 calories in chocolate. I'm embarrassed that I did it, especially when I had been doing so well. It's kind of like my brain is wanting to tell me "You screwed up, might as well give it up." I'm not going to give it up, and I'm trying to tell my brain to shut up. I did make a poor choice this morning and ate pancakes for breakfast. I'm just going to work it into my calories for the day, but I feel so stupid.

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  • Donners185
    Donners185 Posts: 329 Member
    Look don't worry about it too much, we all do it at some point. The main thing is to make sure you don't let it spiral, just jump straight back onto the horse, which is what you have done. Just draw a line under it and forget about it. Happens to the best of us! :flowerforyou:
  • Aosuag
    Aosuag Posts: 30 Member
    Don't be too hard on yourself. This happens to the best of us. The key is to get back on track and keep moving forward. The key to success is the will to keep trying :)
  • PhotogNerd
    PhotogNerd Posts: 420 Member
    I ate an entire box of Junior Mints last night, like 520 calories. I didn't let it get me down. I was only slightly over my calorie goal.

    I find it's okay to indulge every now and again. You shouldn't "give up". It was one instance on one day, that's all.

    By the way, I eat pancakes often.....still losing weight.
  • Ninnyninball
    Ninnyninball Posts: 29 Member
    Don't beat yourself up over it! I have been there myself and when your not seeing it come off on the scales it can be very disheartning.

    I don't know anyone who has been on a diet that hasn't had a bad day every now and again - its just part of the weight loss journey

    Just make the right choices for the rest of the day and you will feel better.

    Who knows the spike in cals yesterday might shift the plateu :flowerforyou:
  • deb62pink
    deb62pink Posts: 84 Member
    Don't feel stupid, we have ALL done it, it's part of the journey to changing your mind set, which is what you need to do to make this permenant. It's not a diet, it's a lifestyle change, don't ever forget that...And if you do stuff up, which you will do from time to time, just dust yourself off and start again, don't keep kicking yourself because that is how you fall back into old habits......
  • How much do you have your deficit set at? If you have it set to 500, you are real close to maintainence. If you set it at 1000, then you are still under you maintainence. If you give up, it will have won. If you keep fighting, you will win. I think you will win in long run. Just remember, what is 10 days to the rest of the days you have to live. :)
  • At least in wasn't 6,000 calories in chocolate! Log it and move on. There are successes ahead!
  • MainahGirl
    MainahGirl Posts: 282 Member
    Don't ever feel stupid! Bindges happen to the best of us! The good news is you know what you did and how to get back on track! Not giving up and logging on MFP is a great way to move on! Losing weight is a journey and what journey doesn't have bumps in the road? Pick yourself up, dust off and move on. :) Feel free to add me if you'd like. I love all the support from my MFP friends! :)
  • marnet12
    marnet12 Posts: 73 Member
    This is a long road. There are bound to be a few pot holes. Don't let them send to spiralinng toward the exit ramp.
  • Dont let a slip or two mess with your head. Be gentle with yourself and move forward. Forgive yourself for binging and move on with your healthy living. Think about how much better you feel now that you are eating better, and exercising. It makes all the difference in the world!!
  • elka67
    elka67 Posts: 268 Member
    How much do you have your deficit set at? If you have it set to 500, you are real close to maintainence. If you set it at 1000, then you are still under you maintainence. If you give up, it will have won. If you keep fighting, you will win. I think you will win in long run. Just remember, what is 10 days to the rest of the days you have to live. :)

    This.

    At worst you 'just' maintained yesterday - if you are set at a 500 cal deficit. Maybe try and get a handle on why this happened but then move on and start again. Good luck.

    Plus 1200 is very hard for some to stick to, I exercise a lot so that I can eat more. I'd be starving on 1200. So maybe uping your activity level might make you less likely to binge or up your calories a bit (1350 perhaps) - it could be easier to stick with.
  • AlsDonkBoxSquat
    AlsDonkBoxSquat Posts: 6,128 Member
    Bah, it was a night. Chances are you'll actually see some progress now that you had a freak out. This is a lifestyle, not a prison sentence.
  • deadbeatsummer
    deadbeatsummer Posts: 537 Member
    So you ate some chocolate. It's not so bad. Just don't get into a binge cycle of doing it everyday.

    Log it and move on. Don't let it ruin your journey to getting the body and fitness that you want - the key is never giving up no matter what.

    It takes an extra 3,500 calories to gain an extra pound so you havent gained too much from it. Just work it out and keep moving.
  • Flafster
    Flafster Posts: 106 Member
    How much do you have your deficit set at? If you have it set to 500, you are real close to maintainence. If you set it at 1000, then you are still under you maintainence. If you give up, it will have won. If you keep fighting, you will win. I think you will win in long run. Just remember, what is 10 days to the rest of the days you have to live. :)

    Eh? A deficit of 500 is NOT very close to maintenance for a lot of women. a 500 calorie deficit for me is almost a 30% decrease. That's doable but pretty tough. A 1000 calorie deficit per day would leave me a net of 800 calories,

    To the OP, I notice you're on 1200 as a goal. I managed it for a while but after about 6 weeks, I was cracking and craving food. I upped to 1400 and I'm still losing at around 5lbs in 6 weeks, but without feeling so obsessed about food and fewer binges. (I'm 5'1, and 139lbs)
  • Take a breath and start over. Remember, you're in control, kick cravings BUTT! :D x
  • j77r68
    j77r68 Posts: 271 Member
    i'm glad that you can admit that you are human and stumble every once in a while. don't worry about it, that little bit of chocolate will not make you gain all that weight that you lost so far. if it makes you feel any better i've pretty much been on a plateau for the last 3 months only losing MAYBE a pound a month! not the kind of numbers i want to see but until i want to put that extra effort into it, that is what i will get. so relax today is a new day and you know you can do it just refocus on what your goals and priorities are and you will get your desired results.
    Good Luck on the rest of your journey
  • prettygirlstorm1
    prettygirlstorm1 Posts: 721 Member
    Hey that happens to all of us at some time or another. Today is a new day!! Start again; I have been battling the worst case of PMS ever and have eaten everything and anything. OH well can't take it back so I will start again today. Good luck to you.
  • JenniferNoll
    JenniferNoll Posts: 367 Member
    Thank you so much for all of the encouragement. I've been doing very well, and I know exactly why I ate all that chocolate. My husband has been out of the country for the past month and a half. I'm an emotional overeater, and last night I was missing him especially much last night, and I went on autopilot. We've been married for 12 years now, and when he has to go away on business for a couple of months at a time, it's harder.
    Also, thanks for mentioning that my little binge may shift my plateau. I needed to hear that, and it really encourages me to keep going.
    When my husband comes home, it will be so much easier.
  • "Don't let a bad day, turn into a bad week"..... I look at this everyday... If I slipup, I just start again, I don't let it get me down....
    Good Luck and keep up the awesome work....
  • racbergs
    racbergs Posts: 72
    If it makes you feel any better, when I binge its WAY more than 600 calories :) don't worry about it, and don't punish yourself. It happens to everyone! FYI, I LOVE pancakes, and when I make them I use the same recipe I usually use just leave out the sugar. Than measure out a couple tablespoons of syrup and that's all the sweetness I need.... still not GREAT for you, but it gets the pancake fix in :)
  • apriltrainer
    apriltrainer Posts: 732 Member
    Please please don't be hard on yourself! I started to try to get off my rollercoaster weight loss ride back in Jan. I stumbled. one day back in May I ate a WHOLE case of dates,almost 10 bananas in one sitting and ONE jar of peanut butter.

    Talk about a bad day.

    I could have just thrown in the towel and decided that the day was SO screwed I might as well give up. But my misstep was a huge wakeup call. It made me more determined to do better. And better I did.

    Now there have been tiny missteps too. Eating two cupcakes for breakfast(Cupcakes from Crumbs bakery at that! Those suckers are about 500 cals each!) That happened about two weeks into a weight loss contest I decided to do. I almost gave up then. I decided to carry on and think about those cals fueling me through my next workout and talking to myself, talking to those calories(I know, sounds weird!) and telling them i'd use them to build me some muscle!

    You know what? I realized I strung up way more positive days than those cupcake kindof days. My postive days outweigh the cupcake days and my physique changed.

    I can now fit into a cute lil bikini and that's because I didn't let those bad days veer me off path.

    Don't let it veer you off yours.

    Good luck in your journey!
  • JenniferNoll
    JenniferNoll Posts: 367 Member
    Wow. All those bananas and dates would have had me in the bathroom for a week! lol.
  • apriltrainer
    apriltrainer Posts: 732 Member
    Wow. All those bananas and dates would have had me in the bathroom for a week! lol.

    Let's just say I had problems with binging and I decided if I was going to binge..I may as well do it on healthy good.

    Uh...nope. It was still awful!

    I vomited those dates up right there in my bedroom. A HUGE wakeup call! Never again!
  • yoovie
    yoovie Posts: 17,121 Member
    that's not a plateau - and a ten day natural lull in your cycle is no reason to punish yourself by feeding yourself crap. Youre going to be doing this the rest of your life- granted in later stages its way more fun cause you dont have all the extra weight and youre doing crazy fun kinds of exercise and eating without guilt for the most part... but what on earth is ten days in a lifetime?

    Either you want this enough to make it happen, or you only said that cause you thought it sounded cool.
  • Josie_lifting_cats
    Josie_lifting_cats Posts: 949 Member
    I did this. I was eating 1,200 calories a day for a month, nothing happened - didn't even lose half a pound. I didn't want to completely give up, but I was consistently over for two weeks, eating around 1,500 calories each day. It was the best thing that ever happened to me, because I started dropping weight, noticed it, started doing some reading, and then realized that 1,200 was just too little for me at the time. Since then I've been quite successful.

    That aside, I still have days where I just say "screw it" and go over with something I shouldn't. I don't worry about it much anymore. One little binge on chocolate seems to do far less damage for me than overeating for two days. It might be the same amount of calories over, but my battle is quantity more than quality.
  • Athijade
    Athijade Posts: 3,300 Member
    1) 10 days is NOT a plateau! Weight loss is not linear and these things will happen. Don't worry about this within a 10 day span.

    2) For many people, 1200 calories is not enough. Thus, you see people try to stick to it and then they binge. Why? It's too restricting! I would NEVER want to eat that few of calories! I lose just fine eating over 1600 plus half of my exercise calories (MFP estimations are too high so I don't eat all of them back).

    3) Never feel guilty. That is how you mess up your relationship with food. Food should not bring guilt even if you splurge on a burger, fries, and beer (which I do once a month).
  • Shelbert79
    Shelbert79 Posts: 510 Member
    At least you admitted it. We all have our moments.
    Once every few months I'll hit a couple weeks when the scale will NOT move but eventually it does, just have to keep up the hard work.
  • carrieo888
    carrieo888 Posts: 233 Member
    This is my favorite quote when I'm tempted to beat myself up over food choices: "If I fall half-way down the stairs, should I pick myself up and throw myself the rest of the way down?" Clearly not, but that's what we often do with food: "Well, I screwed up, so I might as well eat myself sick." Just make another goal today like, how 'bout no chocolate today? or no candy today? or no soda today? Tell yourself you can have them later (it's a good trick, cuz you aren't telling yourself you can't have them). You are strong and beautiful so do something healthy for yourself today!
  • JenniferNoll
    JenniferNoll Posts: 367 Member
    I never expected so many people would help me! I want to thank everyone for their input. I am very aware that this is the way I'll have to live the rest of my life. I will have to be concious of every bite I put in my mouth. Part of what happened last night was due to me having to take some medicine for pain. It lowered my inhibitions and I just did not have my normal control. It's no excuse though. Today is a new start, and I just have to keep going.