Fat and useless

I can totally relate to your frustration as I have currently done the same thing. I stopped logging and poof, the weight came back. I thought I had developed the habits and patterns to make the right decisions to keep the weight off or at least not put it back on but turns out I haven't. it makes you feel like you want to scream and tear yourself a new one. but what I have learned is that there is no point in doing that. we all make mistakes, we all have problems, we all have the ability to turn it around. I believe I can learn from my mistakes and so can you. there is no point in beating yourself up about it but instead just channel that effort into getting back into it. take a moment to reflect on your life for just a small time and find out why you stopped logging.

on a side note, no one is ever fat and useless even though we sometimes feel that way. even at your heaviest you are still an amazing human being capable of great things. you are smart, sexy person. keep your confidence high and that is the first step to making the new lifestyle work.

best of luck to us all

Don't get discouraged. Summer is over and now it's time to get serious again. I just logged a weekend worth of binging and it was tough, but I made myself do it. This shows me why I put on weight and why I need to get focused again. You are a beautiful young lady and you've lost before and you can do it again. Just start a new day and go forward. We are here to support you a 100%. Best of luck.

Start again and remember and learn from your past. Good journey.

Brand new to site but can totally relate. it's hard to realize that just when you thought you got it you didn't. But you have already taken the first step by getting back on and focusing on moving forward from here. It takes 21 dyas to break a bad habit and another 21 ro begin a new one and so on and so forth. I am excited about the wonderful feedback the users have. Take it as a learning lesson and take it one day at a time. You have already made the first step-that one is the hardest.

Get back in the saddle, kid! I bet that you learned something too so don't give up. You can do it!

we have all been there, just start over and take it one day at a time!!!!

I feel your pain! I spent 6 months logging *everything* I ate, and got sick of logging and slowly the weight has started to creep back up. It's so much easier to be in denial, to avoid the scale, and to skip exercising. Then I started feeling miserable because I wasn't exercising and I always think maybe a cookie would make me feel better.

It really is tough getting back to it after I've slacked off, but I'm learning that it gets a little easier each time. We can do this, and it is SO WORTH IT!

i did the same thing this past summer .. twenty lbs heavier .. just figured oh well-- get yer azzz back on track girl and keep moving forward... im not beating myself up. im just going to get 'er done this time

I didn't read every answer post, so sorry if I'm repeating somebody else.

First: I feel you. I totally know what you mean. I also fell off the bandwaggon for a while. However, i did not gain (only 2-4 lbs which at my size is not too bad). Anyway... No matter if I'm logging or not, I will ALWAYS continue to eat much more conscious. And that's just something that you have yet to decide for yourself. Gaining all the weight back could only happen because you ate way over your maintenance rate. I did this many many times (I ate like 15,000 extra calories a week before I started to loose weight!). So I'm not saying this from a arrogant place. I reallly, honestly know how you feel! But you have to make that decision: Even if you stop losing weight, even if you don't log your food anymore, even if you stop exercising: Eat consciously and healthy. Remember what that junkfood can do to your body. Remember that you don't want to be that person anymore...

I hope that helped in some way...

Almost everyone here has been where you're at. You can do it. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start again. While you're doing that think about what life changes you need to make for the next attempt to be successful.

Good luck!!

I'm right there with you! I totally relapsed and gained back a ton of weight I'd worked so hard to lose. It sucks. But you did it once, you can do it again!

Aww, I am going through the same exact thing! I lost twent pounds and gained it all back. I started logging and exercising again a week ago. Its hard to get the motivation back when you have already failed the first time. I think if you just make up your mind to start over you will do great and because you already know how it feels to do so well and fail it wont happen again. So you will be stronger this time around. Good luck!

'My Own Sunshine' said it best, this is a journey of changing habits. The scale doesn't matter so much as eating healthy and exercising. I know how I got to 314 lbs, and I keep reminding myself how I don't want to be there again. Now down 114 lbs I feel so much better. I still have another 20-40 to go, but it's slow, and that's ok.

We all slip up, but we get right back to it. No one is useless either!! Self talk is the one thing you can change this instant. Don't put yourself down. Encourage yourself, I'm sure you would encourage your best friend, why not encourage yourself?