fat and depressed no longer!

Hi! I went through a horrible time in my 22nd year of life, and now that my birthday has come and gone, I'm trying to not blame some outside force for my weight gain and look internally at the real situation. Last year I fell in acid and recieved 3rd degree burns, got robbed by a crack head, and something so terrible, I don't even want to mention it on this forum.

So I'm fat. And unhappy. My boyfriend keeps pinching my stomach and asking me what happened, and frankly, I don't know. When everything started spiraling out of control, my need to eat and consume grew. It doesn't help working in a delicious cheese shop. So here I stand, ready and really willing to lose the weight as healthfully as possible. It is so hard to resist just eating everything in sight, but I'm not an 18 year old anymore, and I cannot treat myself this way.

I just need some help and friendly advice to aid along my 40 pounds weightloss goal. I want it so badly, I can taste it (hah).

Thanks for listening!