I swore I would never do this.

you're amazing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You are beautiful. I hope someday to see it. I am happy you shared. People recognise the struggle and can identify with dfferent parts of your life. I am sorry that you have felt so much pain and hope that your new found strength carrys you somewhere better and helps others. You are truely beautiful.

I pray that you get everything you want and feel wonderful for a change !:flowerforyou:

First, I'm so glad you are working past your issues from your youth and have begun to love yourself. That is truly the first step in this journey.

Second, you look AMAZING! Keep up the great work and you will do all of the things on your "list"!

You have come a long way. Don't stop now.

Oh my goodness! U are so beautiful! Great job! Keep up the hard work!

You look great! It definitely is a journey. You are inspiring so many. The struggles have been there, and you are succeeding. Keep going!

Being in therapy isn't a bad thing. Paying someone to listen to your crap? That's not bad either. Spewing your crap on your family & friends who aren't trained to listen, help, & cope with what you've told them? THAT is a terrible idea.

Never think that going to therapy is wrong. Don't think that medications are wrong either. I was on them. For a few years after Mom died. They made me put on about 30lbs from increased appetite... but with increased appetite came increased ENERGY, and focus. The ability to let the bad just slide away, & focus more on what actually MATTERS.

Without that terrible, rotten, & sometimes suicidal point in my life... without the therapy & the medications... I wouldn't have been able to claw my way back out the other side... decide to get fit & healthy for ME, finish my Degree (like I promised my Mom before she died) & put my world back in order. I've purged major stressors in my life (including relationships: one of them is an unsupportive SISTER), & I've come around to be in a good place.

Keep going on your journey. I'm out of therapy & off medications now, so I may be a *bit* ahead of where you are... but I've walked the path you're currently taking. The road is rough, long, & bumpy. But it ends someplace great.

YOU ARE AMAZING!!! You were born to share your story, what an inspiration!!!

Really?! Girl U R a gem...100% pure certified diamond, ruby whichever one you'd call a best friend, lol. It took courage and insurmountable strength to put yourself out here, and I for one am so glad you did. Your story is so encouraging...so inspirational, deep. I am so happy that you are seeing the beauty, strength, and change that others see in you. My man Tupac said it best "keep your head up."

Wow. You look spectacular! Certainly something to be proud of !

HI, I JUST READ YOUR MESSAGE ABOUT YOURSELF AND MY HEART WENT OUT TO YOU. I NEVER WEIGHED THAT MUCH BUT AT ONE TIME I DID REACH 305 AND I LOOKED AT MYSELF AND SAID: "WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO TO THE BODY THAT GOD GAVE YOU"? I WAS SO UPSET WITH MYSELF AND AT ONE POINT STARTED EXERCISING AT HOME AND CUTTING OUT THE SWEETS, ETC. AND I LOST OVER 30 POUNDS IN 2 MONTHS THAT SUMMER. I ALSO WENT TO MY DAUGHTERS AND DID WATER AEROBICS, WHICH I JUST LOVED AND THAT TOTALLY STARTED TO FIRM AND BUILD MY MUSCLES UP. I FELT SO MUCH BETTER AND LOOKED BETTER AND HAD MORE SELF CONFIDENCE THAN I HAD IN YEARS.
OF COURSE, I GAINED IT BACK AND MORE, THAT'S WHEN I WENT WAY UP TO 305. IT'S BEEN OVER 7 LONG YEARS AND HERE I SIT AT 286 AND NOTHING LOST YET.
THIS TIME I'M NOT GIVING UP BECAUSE I'M 65 AND HAVE A LOT OF JOINT AND BACK PROBLEMS WHICH MAKES IT EVEN HARDER TO DO ANY TYPE OF EXERCISING, BUT I'M STARTING OUT VERY SLOWLY ON MY STATIONERS BIKE AND MY AB-DOER, BECAUSE BETWEEN THE 2 OF THEM, THEY WORK OUT MY ENTIRE BODY.
I SAW YOUR PHOTO'S AND WOW, YOU ARE A VERY BEAUTIFUL WOMAN AND I SUGGEST THAT YOU LOOK AT YOURSELF EVERY DAY AND LOVE THAT WOMAN WHO LOOKS BACK AT YOU AND PRAISE HER FOR DOING A GREAT JOB IN GETTING FIT AND HEALTHY!
YOU SO DESERVE THAT AND MORE. JUST TRUST IN GOD AND HE WILL HELP YOU THROUGH YOUR JOURNEY. DON'T EVER CONDEMN YOURSELF, WE ALL FALL SHORT AND SOME OF US, UNFORTUNATELY ARE PRONE TO BE HEAVY, BUT WE CAN CONTROL JUST HOW HEAVY WE GET. KEEP ON TRUCKIN' AS THEY USED TO SAY IN MY DAY....
ANOTHER THING, I WOKE UP TO THE "LITTLE ENGINE THAT COULD" STORY ON TV., AND I ACTUALLY WATCHED IT ALL AND THAT GAVE ME SUCH AN INCENTIVE TO GET UP AND START TO MOVE AND WHEN I START TO TIRE, I JUST SAY TO MYSELF, I KNOW I CAN, I KNOW I CAN...AND ONCE I REACH MY GOAL, I'LL BE SAYING " I KNEW I COULD, I KNEW I COULD"...KEEP THAT IN MIND AND MAKE THAT YOUR WEIGHT LOSS MOTTO...BECAUSE WE CAN AND WE WILL SUCCEED!!! GOD BLESS YOU.

I know what you mean about being the angry girl...I was there once too. Still maybe a bit sometimes but I applaud you for being so honest and sharing your story. :flowerforyou:

Thank you for sharing! You look terrific!

You're really pretty, you know that? Inside and out. Stay strong-there is definitely a world and a life and happiness for you. I'm glad you're starting to see it and believe you're worth it xx