Anybody else never been skinny?

When I was "skinny" I was thinking I was fat. I wish I was "fat" again!

"Skinny" isn't really what I'm going for, I want to be fit and somewhat muscular when I reach my goal, or afterward. But I guess I can say that the only time I've ever been skinny was when I was a young child, probably from a toddler to about 4 or 5 years old. I don't want to sound like I'm making excuses for myself, but there are a few reasons why this happened, now that I look back on it when I'm older.
I was (and still am) an avid bookworm, so I always preferred staying in and reading to going outside to play. In gym class at school I was always made fun of because I was slow and uncoordinated; that made me self-conscious about doing any kind of sports activities. That self-consciousness is still with me to this day, unfortunately. I don't want to blame my family, but growing up (and to a lesser extent today, they've become slightly more health-conscious recently) we didn't exactly eat the healthiest foods. We weren't poor, but I guess I would say we were at the middle level of middle class. My parents often made us foods that were quick, easy, and cheap, like hot dogs and mac n cheese out of a box. I was also an extremely picky eater until probably about age 11, and my parents didn't really try to correct me, they just let me eat frozen meals because that was most of what I would ever eat.
So, as you can imagine, I spent most of my childhood and teen years being overweight. I think I entered the point of obesity when I was still in high school. Because of being overweight, I have always been self-conscious and had self-esteem issues and body image issues that I'm still battling today. It is interesting to consider what I'll look like when I finally reach my goal weight; I look at people's success stories who had similar builds and starting and ending weights and try to envision myself with a new body. I'm looking forward to it, but I've also accepted the fact that when I get there, I will have to battle against my previous weight history for the rest of my life. I think the feeling of finally being happy inside my own skin will weigh out (pardon the pun) over any negatives about having to maintain and monitor my calories and work out for the rest of my life.

I have never been skinny. In fact, I can remember my 5th grade PE teacher weighing me in at 181 pounds. Omg 181..at 5th grade!!! I weight 187 pounds now and I am 32. The smallest I ever remember getting was 169 pounds, and that was because I was literally not eating. When I did start eating again, I ballooned to 270 pounds. I have lost weight the old fashioned way now, just good old fashioned portion control and exercise. I cant say I have ever really been on a "diet", they don't work for me.

What I have noticed lately is the person I see in the mirror is not the person I see in pictures. It is kind of scary because I still see myself weighing 270 pounds, and it makes me get quite obsessive about exercise. All I can see are my flaws, and I feel like that is all anyone else can see too. Then I see a photo of myself, and it is like I don't even recognize the person I see anymore. I have recently started dating again, and this has become a major issue for me. I think I am more self conscious now than I was when I was bigger.

Coming from a guy, the last time I wasn't overweight I was in 1st grade, have always had a gut since. I do wonder what it's like to be in shape, hopefully we'll find out soon!! This is the closest I've been!

I've never been skinny either. I puffed up starting about the third grade and have continued on ever since. I wonder if that's been part of the reason why I've had difficulty sticking to something ... I don't know what skinny's like. I've been fat my whole life so I'm just used to it.

Oh well, I'm giving it a shot anyway.

The only time I have been "skinny" was when I was 18 and was aneroxic. I have come to a point in my life when I realize and accept the fact that I am a large frame woman, who is very healthly at my current weight and accepts it when my doctor tells me that my ideal weight is 180 pounds. Yes, I have a little way to go but I am diligent - I don't let it be all consuming anymore.

This is the smallest I've ever been in my life and I'm still not "skinny". I can't wait for the day that I don't have wear spanx with a tight dress and I can finally wear a bikini. Sometimes I stare at myself in the mirror while I'm sucking in my stomach, trying to imagine what I'll look like when I'm finally there lol.

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I've never been truly skinny. But I would love to try to get there. I have Grade 4 endometriosis and the pain makes it so hard to exercise. But I am committed to be healthy and thinner. I have already lost 48 pounds!

I've never been thin as an adult. I started gaining weight when I was about 13, gaining a lot after I was 19. I don't know what thin feels like.

Until right now and before I started losing weight, I was literally never skinny and I'm still far from it. In fact, for the past 4 years, I can't remember being a size under 24! And that's awful considering 4 years ago I was only 15. It's disgusting, in fact. I was 5ft 9in (now 11in) round about then so I thought I could get away with it. Oh, no no no no.

Right now, I'm getting back down. I'm still only a size 18. But I feel much better at this size than I did before. I'm hoping to get to around size 12 as I don't think I can much smaller without looking unhealthy with being very tall and a medium frame. But we'll see how it goes. I'd love to lose all, if not most, of this weight before I go to university next year. I'd be ecstatic if it happened. We'll have to see.

Keep rockin' everybody.