overwhelmed

I just got off the phone with a friend who told me to come here. I am f, 46, 238lbs. I was in OA 12-step program for people with eating disorders of all kinds. I consider myself a food addict. I lost 126lbs and kept it off for years and had the surgery the have 9.5 pounds of hanging skin removed. Yes! You guessed right,. I sit here having gained the weight back four years ago. Went to treatment three times. The first year I gained all the weight back and destroyed an $18,000 surgery. The next two years I didn't gain any weight. This past year I lost 29 pounds. I am trying to do the things I did before. I need help.