Can't seem to lose my last 5lbs - Check out my diary please!

you are eating less than 600 cals per day....What are you trying to do, starve yourself?
You will not lose 5lbs of fat that way, you will lose muscle and do serious damage to yourself....
Eat more, you only have 5lbs to lose - set your stats to losing .5lbs per week and stick to it - you will probaby gain at first - all due to the damage you already did to your body....
I just saw on your profile that you have issues with anorexia - PLEASE get some professional help - you are not doing yourself any favours....

I'm going to go with what everyone else here is saying. Your diet needs improvement. I know you think that eating more than 1200 a day will make you gain weight but it won't I have several MFP female friends that eat 2000+ calories a day and they're still losing weight. Keep the workouts but up your calories to compensate for the work or else you'll be spinning your wheels for nothing. It's not as hard as you're making it out to be.

The only problem is that I'm not hungry. I almost have to force myself to eat what I do.

And honestly, the thought of eating more scares me. I'm worried that I'll go back to what I used to weigh or that my stomach with bloat/puff out
I don't know what to do...

Animals (including humans) who are starving lose their appetites.

You should never be scared of 'eating more' when you are not eating enough to maintain your body weight. You really do need to think hard about what you're doing to yourself and why.

If you are having trouble eating larger meals, eat small portions 6-8 times per day....and you need to at least double what you are eating. Your body is in starvation mode...you might even start to gain weight....I did.

You should also consult with a dietician and doctor.

What will happen initially when I start to eat more? Like, will I bloat really badly, or will all the fat go to my stomach?

no if you eat more food followed by doing anerobic activity (high intensity) the body will add shape and muscle to your frame and be much better off from a health perspective.. if you want more info just add me or send me a message.

How do you suggest that I eat more without getting bloating or gaining?

Eat good nutritious foods that don't have tons of simple carbs (sugars) and aren't too high in fat (fried stuff). Protein is a great food source that helps you retain muscle mass while you diet and it makes you feel fuller. You want to keep that muscle because it keeps your metabolism running higher and it makes you look awesome.

What will happen initially when I start to eat more? Like, will I bloat really badly, or will all the fat go to my stomach?

No, you won't blow up like a cow. Will the fat go to your stomach? You're not going to gain weight if you're eating under what your body needs so no. Don't obsess about the scale so much. Measurements are more important than anything and your weight can fluctuate a few pounds each day depending on your hydration levels and the amount of waste in your intestines. Neither one of these have anything to do with looking good and healthy even though they might make the scale seem higher for a day or two.

Check out my friend's diary. She eats a ton and is in fantastic shape. You should follow her example on how it's done.
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/almondbuttalovah

How does she eat so much and stay so thin? If you don't mind, could you please tell me her workout routine?

Ask her. I think she's online atm.

My question really is, at what rate should I increase calories per day/week to prevent water weight or bloating.

First of all I would up it to at least 1000 net calories. Then adjust it up about 100 a week until you find the magic spot that works for you. Again, don't worry so much about water weight. It isn't real or permanent. Do you freak when you drink a glass of water? Na, it doesn't count. Just because your body holds onto more one day over the next isn't anything to worry about.

I recommend you go back to your doctor because, psychologically, I don't think you have fully recovered from your disorder.

Agreed. While the advice re upping calories is good, you do not appear to have recovered from your ED.

Cut it down to 400 calories a day. Eat Ice chips, air and Benefiber. Then run 7 miles a day for 10 days a week!
That's how to do it!

Obviously the OP has some mental issues still happening around food. My advice is to stop feeding into the whole thing. Making fun of her isn't productive and she isn't about to change because of our advice.

OP, please seek medical advice.

Go get help - start with your doctor if you don't know where else to go ....

Totally agree she needs to get medical help. Will do no good to starve themselves and that is what she is doing. Will be praying for her and her situation!!!

Hi Squeekycat! I sure wish people on here would be a little less blunt with their advice. A person who is a closet Twinky eater is in pain, and you are in pain but with an opposite problem. I really feel for you and your situation. You know you eat too little so we don't need to revisit that. I wish I had something fancy to tell you but I don't. All I can say is that I hope from the bottom of my heart that you get a counselor or someone you can really open up to about emotional issues. That will unlock the key to why you just can't (or don't want to) eat more from fear of, whatever. Take a step back, regroup. I believe people can change, even what has been burned into their brains for years. You must do this for yourself before you continue to count calories. So don't worry about those last 5 lbs....please consider working on you, a mentally and emotionally stronger you. You can do it. If you are strong enough to eat as rigid as you do you have a toughness inside you already! Some people wish they had that naturally. I bet you have artistic talent too...don't you? See, I know you already. Write me anytime for a HUG! Best of luck, Rita in VA.

I know it's probably really hard for you to even think about eating more, but you really need to. And I know it's scary, and you don't want to bloat, but I promise you, it's going to be fine. Maybe jumping right to 1200 calories will be too much, but you should try to increase your cals slowly to eventually get to that point, and actually even more.

I definitely think talking to a professional will help you. If you don't know where to start, your doctor is always a good place to look for resources. And if you need any support i'm always here for moral support, don't hesitate to drop me a message.

Also, anyone who jokes around about eating disorders is a *kitten*. Would you do the same with depression, or schizophrenia? They are legitimate psychological disorders and people need to understand that.