My 50 lb loss so far-my feelings on this

Well, I hit that magical 50 lb loss this morning. I thought ONEderland was something! I have been seriously thinking about alot of things and I need to write a few things down. I still have 38 lbs to go, but this feels utterly fantastic! For the first (and truly the first) time in my life, I can now look in the mirror and honestly tell myself that I love ME. This is a huge revelation. I've always been so hard on myself-I went from being a petite child to a huge, overweight preteen seemingly overnight. I had bad acne, greasy skin and hair and hated myself. I didn't hang with a good crowd because of my appearance and low self-esteem. Gradually I became the "life of the party" to fit in. I also inherited my father's big everything: hands, nose, feet, body structure. I was not thin when I first got married, but not really overweight by then. I grew too 'comfortable' in my life, and after 2 children, gained weight and held on to it. Every time I would lose weight, I was greeted with "where, in your little finger"? or the ex-*kitten* would call me 'tt', which meant thunder thighs. I had no self-esteem. The entire family was very controlling, so I now realize I turned to food, because it was the ONE thing I could control. When I was out of the house, I could eat whatever I wanted, so I was happy. Fast forward to my 50th birthday. I have been married to the man of my dreams for 3 years now. He is more supportive in this journey than anyone has ever been. In fact, he's doing it with me! I made the decision in June to ask my doctor for help because I couldn't stand it any longer. My self-esteem was being restored by my husband. I started eating clean and working out. I always hear "great job"! or "damn you look sexy". This "journey" I'm on has truly made me realize that I can do something and stick with it. I've never lost 50 lbs in my life. I honestly, truly love myself. That makes it worth it!