My progress so far - 340s to 188

Hi everybody. I can't begin to tell you how nervewracking this is, but tonight I decided to take some pictures of myself (some of which involve a bikini and they will never see the light of day until I am toned and sexy!) and I thought I would share my progress so far. It's really hard for me to see my progress myself so I thought maybe this would help me.

I have horrible, horrible self esteem so I can't tell you how scary it is to post these images. I really don't have many pictures of me at my heaviest (somewhere around 340 lbs. as a teenager) because I was so ashamed, I wouldn't let myself have my picture taken. It is still very hard for me to take pictures because I feel I look hideous head to toe, but I am working on that very hard and I thought this would be a good step in the right direction of improving my self esteem, too

Before:




First picture is of me as a teenager, not quite at my heaviest. Second picture is from December 2009, I weighed about 260 then. Picture of me in the dress is me at about 230 earlier this spring, before I joined MFP.




Me at 188 lbs... first time under 200 in as long as I can remember

I don't have my measurements from when I was at my worst, but at my heaviest as a teen I was wearing XXL shirts and size 26/28 pants. When I was in the 250 range, I was wearing XL shirts and 18/20 pants. Right now I am wearing L shirts and just bought my first pair of size 14s last week.

I am always looking for motivation and support, especially with the self esteem issues I'm trying to tackle right now, which is why I thought this would be a good place to post these pictures I hope maybe these will give other gals and guys some, well, hope! I know I'm not there yet, but I've come a long way and I'm not going to stop now.