Personal Trainer who needs support!

I have fallen off the healthy-eating wagon. I fell off so hard, it left bruises and scars all over my body. And I want nothing more than to hop back on and hold on for dear life.

I'll start from the beginning. In May of 2011 I weighed in at 197.6 pounds on the scale in my bathroom. I was devastated. I couldn't believe I had let myself get that big, given that I am a mere 5 foot 2 inches. I decided that I had enough, and I started tracking my food intake, began exercising (on my treadmill) at least 30 minutes a day, and eventually started changing my eating habits to more healthier ones.


Fast forward 8 months later to January of 2012 and I weighed in at 128 pounds. I fell in love with fitness so much so that I decided to start school to get my degree in Advanced Health and Fitness and become a personal trainer.

At that point I was down to a size 2 and I was as thin as I had ever remembered EVER being in my life - and I was STILL not satisfied. I compared myself to other women constantly and I hated my body. More over, I was stuck at a plateau for over a month and I was becoming frustrated. This eventually led me to develop bulimia. Once I saw that didn't work, I stopped the purging part and simply binged all the time.

Over the course of 11 months I have gained almost 20 poundsfrom all of my binging, and I am done with the pity party. Part of that weight gain is muscle - my legs are buff and have little fat on them, and I'm only a size 4 - but I'm tired of feeling guilty and bloated after eating unhealthy meals. Changing my lifestyle is about being healthy, not just about looking good.

I am 3 months away from graduating and becoming a certified personal trainer, and I want to live the lifestyle that I want my clients to live. My classmate and I plan on having our own fitness studio for Women's Fitness that offers bootcamps, group exercise classes, personal training, and yoga and meditation. I want live as healthy as I can be when we open our doors.

My education has included nutrition classes, proper macronutrient ranges for different types of athletes and fitness goals, and proper training for different goals. I KNOW what it is I need to do, but it is challenges that I need to overcome. When I started to lose weight I had virtuallly no friends because I was socially awkward. Now I have a large group of friends and a boyfriend who highly enjoy their junk food and alcohol consumption. Not only that, but I live with my sister who works at Pizza Hut and brings home pizza every single night. These have been the main obstacles I have faced.

Luckily, exercise is enjoyable for me, and it is my resistance training that has kept me from ballooning even faster.

My plan is to start over again with MFP and tracking all of my calories. I will plan my food intake the night before just like I used to, and I have to figure out a way to tackle the pizza cravings I get every night (suggestions???). I have to be more disciplined and stick to my guns.

My goal is to lose 6 pounds by January 1st (mostly water weight, but that's okay), and one inch off my hips. I need all the support I can get, so add me and keep me motivated! That's right, the personal trainer is asking for support!

Thanks guys!