New to this site....

Hi everyone, I have been using this site for a few weeks now. I am looking to lose 30-40 pounds. I am down 5 lbs so far.
I have struggled with self esteem since my now ex boyfriend renamed me F and F. (fat and forty). The funny thing is, he always raved about how beautiful I was, until I took a job out of state (was able to come home on weekends and he was totally supportive of), until I actually left. He freaked and broke my heart Turned very nasty with the name-calling ,That was over a year ago and clearly, I am still bothered by it. I am well aware that I need to lose weight for myself and no one else, but Im not gonna lie, I sure push myself more on the treadmill when I think of that infamous nick name.
I am training for a 5k and love the couch to 5k workout, And this site has made me much more aware of what I put in my mouth.
Would love to share ups and downs on this journey with others.