My Story... 3rd Time is a Charm

I've been on here before and lost all motivation, so I left, and came back, then left and came back again. This is my third time returning to My Fitness Pal, and this time is going to be my huge success. I'm not giving up this time... I refuse to let my weight and health defy me time and time again.
I'm a food addict and I know it, the worst part is I'm a pretend healthy food addict. By this I mean I eat things that people like me think are healthy when really they aren't. I'm a sucker for Caesar salad and snacky foods in massive quantities. I could eat an insane amount of salad and tell myself it's ok because it was loaded with veggies. I'm a sucker for greek salad too. Onions, tomato, green pepper, olives, cucumber, feta cheese and greek dressing. I'll eat two bowls of it in one sitting and tell myself I did nothing wrong.
Anyways, my story. First time I was here I wasn't really motivated. I had it in my mind I'd wake up this one day with putting half as$ effort into workouts and cheating with what I was putting into my body. Eventually (when the scale started going up), I left.
I came back a couple years later by the encouragement from a friend. We were both hell bent on being skinny. I actually did ok that time around but I started having issues in my life. I started suffering from anxiety, which eventually led to depression. In this state of anxiety I couldn't eat. I mean I physically could not bring myself to eat anything. My stomach would do weird things once I smelled food. Didn't matter what it was... I couldn't eat it. Every three days I'd force down a yogurt to end my dizzy spells. I lost about 18 lbs in a week and half. Finally a doctor helped me and gave me medicine for stomach ulcers, turned out my anxiety had eaten away my entire stomach lining.
I was still suffering from anxiety, but I could eat again! I was so happy. I had to smaller portions because of how small my stomach had shrunk. So all was well and dandy. That is until one day....
Easter. We had a bunch of family over for the weekend and had supper the day before easter. Decided to do a big brunch before everyone left on easter morning. We made breakfast. Eggs, bacon, hash browns, toast... you get the idea. After everyone ate (me included) they left and we decided to nap. I laid there for a bit but something didn't feel right. I had this weird slowly building feeling in the center of my chest. Slowly, the pain started. It amplified quickly. I was in full blown completely agonizing pain. After balling hysterically for about 15 minutes, my hubby decided to take me to the hospital. As I was getting dressed, the pain stopped. Just like that. GONE. But to be safe, we went into the hospital anyways.
I was diagnosed with gallstones. My pain had been a result from eating the eggs. I now had to learn what was safe and not safe to eat with my stones.
Anyways, long story short I lost more weight. I went from 245-250 ish lbs down to 190 lbs. I had my gallbladder removed and now I'm finding myself slipping back into old habits. I have since put on another 20 lbs and sitting at 210. I can't do this anymore!!!

So, that's me... in somewhat of a nutshell. Sorry for the long drawn out history, but I wanted you to know what life has been like for me to get to this point. I hope to make some friends along the way!
I understand I might mess up from time to time, maybe even go on a short hiatus. BUT I am not stopping this time. I can't...... I want to be HAPPY!