This journey is the P I T S !

charliexmonroe
charliexmonroe Posts: 3 Member
in Motivation and Support
So, I am actually a first time poster (takes a bow) thank you! :) But I just felt the need to post something today because I need to get some things off my chest. I feel like I don't have anyone to talk to…so I might as well talk to someone and it might as well be you guys since we are all striving for the same thing right?

Well, I've been on my healthy easting/living journey for about 2 and so months. I know I've been doing great because I have seen a difference in my body. I've lost a nice amount of weight I feel. I've actually been on myfitnesspal.com for a LONG TIME. Started on here when I was about eighteen, but I'd fall off and not log in for months. This time around I've been trying really hard and I guess all together I've lost a total of 24 pounds. My starting weight was 236 (some of those pounds I lost prior to really being committed so I think I've lost about 12 pounds so far and I'm sure about inches. I have been measuring myself but…eh!)

Anyway, I just feel that I've been working so hard and my body doesn't look that different. Don't get me wrong I see a difference, but don't you sometimes feel that it should be a HUGE difference sometimes? I just feel like … eh, this isn't going fast enough so I QUIT, but I know that isn't an option. And I know that this journey will take a while and sometimes I don't mind it taking awhile because I want to be able to do this for the rest of my life and stay fit and be able to eat like I do for the rest of my life. This isn't just a phase for me, this is a life changing thing that I am doing. Yes, yes I know the slower you lose the better, right?

I just want to see a drastic change. My arms (bat wings for days!), my fat back, and my stomach are my problem areas. I just feel so flabby and I do my strength training (well the best I can because I use resistance bands and I don't have enough money for weights yet [ college student here ], but I also try to do things that i have to use my body weight as well). But yeah the inches are melting off like I want them to. So frustrating at times and a little discouraging. And I'm trying to do a bunch workouts I hate that I know I won't get up and do. I know how I am and if I don't like it, goes what? Ye, you guessed it…I WON'T DO IT!

Then you know you start looking at other people's progress and see that their arms where just as large or their stomaches and then you look at yourself and say… "How did their arms get so tiny and that picture we are the same weight? Why don't my arms look like that?" I don't know maybe it's because when Iw as younger I gained so much weight quickly because of health issues and medication (Lupus SLE) and my body didn't have chance to catch up and then after they took me off some meds I lost weight so fast. So my body was in shock and didn't catch up again. Maybe my arms, stomach, back are doomed? I don't know. Sorry I am rambling now.

All I'm trying to say I guess is that I'm tired! I've tried! And I want to just throw in the towel. But I know that's not an option because I've come a long way and I just have to keep pushing, but it's hard when you don't really have people to talk to about it. I don't feel like I can talk to my family and I don't feel like I can talk to my friends. I just need people to talk to sometimes you know?

Well, I'm done venting and letting it out. (blows out a deep breath)

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  • paleopin
    paleopin Posts: 47
    12 pounds is awesome!!! Don't beat yourself up!!! Personally I think the hardest part of losing weight is the psychological aspect like feeling you don't deserve to look good. Your brain is lying to you! Seriously your brain wants to avoid getting hurt so it programs itself to avoid things that seem difficult, you just have to stick with it to reprogram yourself into thinking it's a good thing because you're getting healthy. I have the same issues so I totally understand. Try to be nice to yourself and say nice things to yourself like "Oh good job I only had a bite of that cookie and then threw it out. That took a lot of willpower to stop mid-cookie." instead of "OMG what's wrong with me I had a bite of a cookie." It sounds cliched but it does start to work. Add me if you need more friends I could always use more too!
  • Josalinn
    Josalinn Posts: 1,066 Member
    Does your college have a gym? Some colleges let students have free access others have a very small charge (i think i had a $35 per SEMESTER fee) and i didn't graduate THAT long ago.

    Planet Fitness is $10 a month.

    Buying your own weights isn't a *great* idea IMHO because unless you get the kind that allow you to increase the weight you will have to keep buying heavier weights.

    I'm in grad school right now, and I don't have a job. All my money comes in the form of loans. But I just allocate the gym membership because I know its worth it.
  • weesinglane
    weesinglane Posts: 44
    I completely relate to everything you said - I also have issues with my arms and back (and legs and...). But stick with it! Your body will surprise you. I go through weeks of not seeing any change, then I suddenly see something different in the mirror. Don't give up!

    If you get bored of whatever workout you're doing - try classes! See if there's anything on Groupon in your area - great way to save $$ :)
  • katy_trail
    katy_trail Posts: 1,992 Member
    i've lost at least 10 inches,and I look the same too, except for water loss in my belly area and face.
    focus on your fitness improvements. focus on the potential. it's astounding.
    http://www.myfitnesspal.com/topics/show/979304-when-you-know-you-just-can-t-do-it-for-one-more-day
  • 4mydogs
    4mydogs Posts: 66 Member
    You have done a great job so far!! Here are some suggestions for toning your body without weights. Do bodyweight excercises, pushups, planks, squats, burpees. Also you can fill milk gallons with water or sand and use as weights. Last suggestion for lean arms, yoga! If you have cable they have lots of on demand excercise free videos.
  • charliexmonroe
    charliexmonroe Posts: 3 Member
    Thanks all for all the nice words. Sorry, for my pity party and being a pooper today. I usually try to be positive, but for some reason it's just been getting to me. But those suggestion about toning I will def do! I'm going to keep on pushing and staying uplifted a positive. Thanks guys you've really been a big help. It feels nice just to talk to people who understand and things.
  • iWaffle
    iWaffle Posts: 2,208 Member
    Well, I've been on my healthy easting/living journey for about 2 and so months. I know I've been doing great because I have seen a difference in my body. I've lost a nice amount of weight I feel. I've actually been on myfitnesspal.com for a LONG TIME. Started on here when I was about eighteen, but I'd fall off and not log in for months. This time around I've been trying really hard and I guess all together I've lost a total of 24 pounds. My starting weight was 236 (some of those pounds I lost prior to really being committed so I think I've lost about 12 pounds so far and I'm sure about inches. I have been measuring myself but…eh!)

    Anyway, I just feel that I've been working so hard and my body doesn't look that different. Don't get me wrong I see a difference, but don't you sometimes feel that it should be a HUGE difference sometimes? I just feel like … eh, this isn't going fast enough so I QUIT, but I know that isn't an option.

    Just focus on the next pound and then the one after that when you reach it. You're doing this the right way and that's what's going to make this stick and be permanent. I remember thinking that the first 20 pounds or so didn't seem to make a huge difference but when I stacked losing 20 on top of losing the first 20 it made a huge difference. I've basically thrown out all the old pants I used to own.

    Keep at it and you're going to get incredible results. Like you said it's a lifetime change and it's for the better.
  • charliexmonroe
    charliexmonroe Posts: 3 Member
    thanks!

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