Feeling completley alone, starting again...

Hey

well here I am, starting again for the 100th time and I know I need to do something about my weight, but am really struggling to find the motivation. I have half my body weight to lose and the thought of it scares me!

I look at myself in the mirror and I still see myself as I was years ago, thin, but then I get a shock and see myself how I truly am, and I get myself all down and depressed about it.

I have a binge eating disorder and am currently seeing a therapist with CBT to help this as well as my depression and anxiety. As I am writing thins I am wondering who will read and if I can actually find some support out there as I don't have any at home, my husband has stopped saying things in the case he upsets me or I fly off the handle, whereas my mother is constantly having a go.

So here I am, starting again, looking for friends, support and help along the way, so please feel free to add me as a friend (I have yet to learn how to do the same) and give me that kick up the *kitten* I need!!

Stace

I am with you! WE WILL DO THIS TOGETHER! I have a LOT to lose also, but its never to late until your in a coffin so keep moving!!!!!!

I know how you feel. This is it for me, I was starting again...for the 100th time and I needed to lose at least 60lbs. I didn't think this time would be different, but I stuck to it. I kept going. And here I am 6 months later, down 42lbs and I went from an 18 to a 10.
The thing is...you CAN do it...and for me it was realizing that it wasn't going to happen over night, that this was a life change and sometimes I was going to fall of the wagon..and that's ok because I get right back on. I still have about 25lbs i'd like to lose and it's definitely getting harder. Let's do this, I know you can!! Feel free to add me

You have lots of company. Don't look at the whole journey, look at today and try to do the best you can. It'll come together for you!

Hi Stace,

My name is Catherine. While I dont have an eating disorder I do know about depression and anxiety. And I need to loose a 120 pounds myself.

It is overwhelming and it is hard, but you need to set your eye on the price and find small ways to get there. I started in November because of a doctors visit and by April I had lost 46 pounds. Then I had some major stress going on during the month of May and I kind of gave up. Thankfully I only gained back 3 pounds, because while I quit exercising I tried not to overeat to much on the calories.

At the beginning of June I decided I can't let life rule me, I need to rule my life. So here I go again trying.

You can do it!!!!!!!:flowerforyou: Feel free to add me as a friend if you like. I only get on a few times a day, but I will respond when I am on.

Don't fret - you are not alone. You can friend me if you like - I am a big motivator and will check on you if you need a little extra.

Hi and welcome! I, too, have been back and forth on trying to get into a routine to get healthier. It's not easy. I suffer from depression, anxiety, and on again/off again borderline personality disorder where I will just not be on the same planet as everyone else. It's makes it hard to get a clear perspective on my current health, and it's nearly impossible to create a routine, but at least we aren't alone!

I used to try to get up early in the mornings to work out before going to work. It was nice to have that out of the way and not have to worry about it for the rest of the day, but after a three-day long mood crash it stopped, and I haven't been able to get up early since. =( Tired all day - I know all about it. Something I'm working with my doc to try to figure out and fix, but in the mean time, zero-calorie energy drinks get me through the day without eating up my set goal. I try to drink only water at night when I get home (with crystal light added) so I can sleep when it's time for bed. I have a long way to go until I reach my ideal weight, and right now I'm not even sure what that is. In the few weeks I've been here I've found that switching out one of my unhealthy go-tos a week makes the transition much easier, and I'm already starting to see results.

You have to remember that this isn't going to just happen overnight, and the number on the scale isn't the most important end-goal. Most important is feeling good in the body you are in, whatever the size or shape, and wanting to keep getting stronger.

Best of luck as you start (again) on your journey. Add me if you like.

"People often say that motivation doesn't last. Well, neither does bathing - that's why we recommend it daily." - Zig Ziglar

I'll send a friend request

wow!! Everyone! Thank you so much!!! I am completely overwhelmed!!!

I live in Newcastle Upon Tyne.

I work in a sedentary job, and sit in a call centre all day, so the exercise for me is when I get home after the school/work run/doing tea/tidying up/washing/sorting stuff out for the next day etc.... so come evening I just want to put my feet up.

I know that once I start exercising I will have more energy and that is something I am hoping to build into my routine.

I need to get my eating under control and exercising.

The eating I think is the first thing, that and ditching the energy drinks.... I have been exhausted and not sleeping well so sinking cans of energy drinks (and their calories) like there is no tomorrow.

Going to reset my calorie tracker, downloaded the app on my phone to do when I am out of the house, and track absolutely everything!!

Once I am in a routing with that, start my exercising again.

All great ideas! If you are looking for energy but don't want the calories, etc. of an energy drink, try the drops you put in regular water (like Mio) - they taste good too!

Friend request sent

Welcome Stacey,

I am new too and trying to figure out how to get back my healthy eating habit. My body now craves all the crap that I have been giving it for the past few years That along with quitting smoking and menopause the weight came quick!

So here's to turning it around one day at a time. We can definitely do this!