I'm on my way to a success story

If I want to be honest with myself, I think for a good time now (a good month) I’ve been emotionally unhappy with my weight loss journey. I’ve stalled, the scale has been up and down the same couple of pounds and I was just not accurately logging anymore and binged a lot more frequent than ever before. And all the information weight loss can get SO overwhelming.
I started to feel fat, unworthy and unhappy again. And to no surprise, I’d shut it up with all the food in sight. Naturally, I gained a couple pounds.

I began seriously thinking I had an issue because as I saw friends and family and received the “WOW YOU GOT THIN MRS. MODEL” compliments, I never really took them as a compliment. I took it as them just comparing me to the fatty I was before. I never heard “You look great!” I heard “You look great…compared to what you were” (How sickening?! I’ve never been one for compliments, though but this was clearly a problem) I read up on Body Dysmorphic Disorder and though I related to SOME of it, I didn’t fully relate to all of it. I mean, what girl doesn’t have a slight self image concern?

Then yesterday, I saw a friend that I haven’t seen in well over a year. And she said she noticed in my FB pictures that I lost weight, but now that she saw me in person, it was a lot more noticeable. But she didn’t make a scene. She just mentioned it nonchalantly. I think that helped me. I told her how it’s hard for me to notice it at times, she simply said “but it is clearly noticeable” So I left it at that and just said “Thanks” I really like that fact that it wasn’t all “OMMGGGG YOU LOOOK GREAT” It was just natural, and it felt more genuine and the subject was dropped.

Then, we went to the mall. Long story short:

I was able to walk into stores I never did before.
I wasn’t their biggest size. I was average.
My friend kept telling me “I think that’s too big for you” and I’d reply “but that one is too small” So off to the fitting rooms I went. And the “too small” fit me.

This kept going on throughout the day. I don’t even think she did it on purpose, but she yesterday, she made me realize and have an epiphany that I have changed and that I am a success story (in progress) damnit!

I may not be where I want to be. But, I am currently the most fit, healthiest and lightest I have ever been in my entire life.

It was just what I needed to hit that reset button and get back to my healthy lifestyle. I need to thank this friend, because she unknowingly helped me realize how far I have come.

It's not about thin, it's about being healthy and I feel great!