Hi, I am Kitty.

I have almost always felt uncomfortable in my body. When in high school, I weighted 139-145 or so, and I felt super fat. I am 5 foot an a rose petal, so that was a bit overweight, but not fat. Had I been more toned, I would have been just right.

By the time I was 23 I weighted 213 lb. OMG I was big. I was round, I was very unhappy with my weight, but I felt like I could not do anything about it. I went to lots of doctors, because I knew something was wrong. They all said I was fine, I just need to work harder, but I worked out, I ate ok, and nothing happened. Then I went to the gynecologist, and her mid-wife told me I had PCOS. She told me that my being so large was in part because of that, she told me I could lose weight if I was on gluchophage and ate lower carbs, and worked out more. She gave me hope. I started taking the meds, and trying. In a few months I was don’t 20lb.

At my 26 birthday, I weight 140lb. Wow. That is 73lb lost. Around that time, I felt good in my body. I was toned, I looked good, my health was great. No pain in my feet anymore, I felt so much younger. To be honest I got a bit of an ego, I sort of liked looking at my muscles in the mirror, and going shopping in the miss and girls sections of the stores.

I am 29 now, and I have had a desk job for a year (accountant). I weight 170lb. I feel so sad. I worked so hard for three years to get where I was, and now I feel like a lame loser. How could I let this happen. It was a few lbs here, and a few there, and the next thing I knew I was fat again. I tried out the wii fit a few days ago, and it told me I am OBESE (how rude).

I don’t have nice hard muscles anymore. I can’t wear size 6 (I am in size 14 pants now, I can wear 12 if I try hard). I feel older, I am starting to have pain in my legs and feet again, I am tried, and I feel more sad more of the time. It is amazing how much weight effects my whole life.

My goal weight when I started from 213lb was to reach 133lb. 80lb. I never reached that, the lowest I got was 139lb. I want to reach that so bad. I want to be that person.

How I did it the first time:
Took my meds ever day on time
Worked out 2-3 hours a day
Keep a food journal- keeping my net calories under 1200, or 1000 everyday.
Took a multivitamin everyday (don’t think this did much for the weight lose, it just seemed like something I should do)
Ate lower carb (not super low) and high protein (hence the nice tone)

I got to the gym now 5 days a week. I work out for about 1 hour a day. It is not enough, I am barley staying afloat.

I have though about getting a personal trainer (not because I need the expertise, but because it would be nice to have someone else invested in my health), but that costs a bit more then I can pay right now.

So I am finally filling out my profile, and making a post, maybe I can get a little support here, and feel like I have someone to prove “I can do it” too.