Hey, you? WTF is your problem?

I have to keep my hands busy. Sitting at the computer, I tend to be a grazer.
As the saying goes, I named my demon and made it mine, so now I know what NOT to do. I'm more concious of it.

I find boredom is a major factor for me. I'm a gamer so I can spend hours on end not moving my eyes from my TV and not have the urge to eat or in my case smoke.
But when I'm in work and it's quiet or at home with nothing to do i find myself wandering to the fridge or snack box to see what's there.
Sometimes I can munch so much i feel sick!

I'm going to try and keep myself busy, might help me with my smoking problem

Sitting in front of a screen makes me want to eat.

I found that when im trying to lose body fat I obsess over food . Eventually you have a " I don't care attitude" and you eat what you want because the mind is always so focused on food .

Get your mind on to other things that are worthy of your thoughts

My problem is that I think I'm large, even when I see pictures of myself next to other people I consider small, and realize that the little shrimp is me. But I'm much more accepting of myself, regardless, than I've been in the past.

While I think that's true to some extent for me, I don't think it's the case for everyone. Some people just like to eat. We evolved to enjoy foods that are high in calories, because that helped us to survive. Now, those foods are readily available, and we have easy access to far more energy in food form than we could ever need, but we are still genetically predisposed to wanting to eat those foods. Eating food gives (most of) us pleasure, so we do it.

(Also, not everyone's here for the same reason. )

I think, in the end, this is what I'm dealing with. I simply love high-fat food and large volumes of it. I like the feeling of being super-stuffed and I like the taste of those super-stuffy foods.

My problem was a change in training that didn't suit my body at all.

Until 2009 my activities consisted of a bit of running (no further than 10k), the odd spin class, a fair bit of weight lifting and lots of Ashtanga Vinyasa Yoga (5x a week). I was a lean size UK8 (US4) pretty strong and very flexible and I was never injured.

Then I got involved in distance running and shortly after that distance triathlons (half and eventually full Ironman distance) and despite my training load having more than doubled I carried on gaining weight. I had been advised by my coach that there was no time in my training schedule for weights or yoga. I lost all my lean mass and all my flexibility and I ate loads. I had enormous endurance and could cycle for 6 hours or run for 4, but my body was ruined. By the time I did my IM I was a size UK12 (US8). I had severe overuse injuries that meant I did next to nothing for the subsequent 2 years, and how we're in 2013, I'm a UK14 (US10) with 40 pounds to lose.

I've gone back to what works for me... eating when I'm hungry, short runs, lots of walking, just re-started Vinyasa yoga and about to re-start weights.

I binge in the late afternoon when i went too long without eating during the day. I used to binge when lonely or stressed out. Then purge. I am working on my issues. It takes a lot of honesty with oneself to decipher what a void is really about.

Instead of saying what I really want to say and being honest about my feelings, I stuff food in my mouth.

I know it's really clichéd, and makes me sound like a right sap, but I eat for comfort I think.

If I'm feeling low, I eat. I'm trying very hard to break that habit, but it's hard. Really hard.